Starstruck Love

Don't Think I Don't Think About You

"Why the hell are you kissing your pillow?" I suddenly opened my eyes and and squinted due to the brightness shinning through my window.I placed my hand on my forehead to cover the brightness and looked over to my bedroom door. "JEEESSSSSIICCAAAA" I happily screamed. I got up as fast as I could and ran over to hug her."I missed you!"I said as I stopped hugging her. "Dude it's been a day....don't exaggerate.....and back to my original question what the hell were you doing with that pillow?" she asked as she walked over to the window. " I was having a dream.....well at first a very good dream then it turned into a nightmare." I walked over to where she was standing and looked out the window. " Why are they here?.....wait why are you here and not at your house?....What the hell is going on?" I asked as I looked at jessica and out the window repeatedly. Jessica sighed heavily and turned to me. "I explained yesterday....your dad stopped the tour for a week or two not sure yet and he said we could all go back to where we wanted." "Jessica that still doesn't explain why everyone on those two tour buses are here." She quickly moved away from the window and sat on the bed. " I might have suggested your house as a place to stay....." she said covering her face. "YOU WHAT!" "Don't worry it's not everyone on the two buses it's around half of them." I went and sat next to her putting my head in my pillow....and removing it quickly since it was full of my spit." Jessica my house is not that big." " We can make it work even your dad agreed to it.......and he also gave us permission to use the sauna and the pool!!" She said as she got up and jumped around. "Well he did say we couldn't smoke....but that was more towards Colson and Gerald than anybody else." I looked at her with a blank stare. "They're st...staying here to?" I asked hoping she would smile and just say she was kidding. "Yeap.....I mean they're the main reason why almost everyone is staying." at that moment I didn't know how to respond so I just nodded my head and forced a smile. She looked at me and headed for the door, she suddenly stopped and said "by the way I was supposed to come get you for breakfast....so hurry." "Ok.....thanks I'll be down in a heartbeat." I said with a forced smile. I laid down in my bed and started thinking. Have you ever felt as if you're trapped? Well I did.....and I didn't know a way out of it. On one side I had every girl's dream guy. Sweet, caring and all that other cliche stuff. And in the other hand I had a bad boy who didn't show his feelings like I expected but was sweet unexpectedly. Yet here I was forcing myself to make a decision...not knowing what I wanted.

I quickly got dressed with black sweatpants and a red Blink 182 shirt. I grabbed my red vans put them on and grabbed my bag stuffing my car keys inside. I quickly went down the stairs and headed for the door. "At least get some breakfast." I stopped dead in my tracks...hearing that voice made my heart pound like it was about to fly out my chest. "I'm okay.....don't really have an appetite." I lied I was starving and everything that was visible in the kitchen looked really tasty. He simply shrugged and moved into the living room and sat down on the couch. "GUADALUPE!" Jessica screamed from the kitchen. I walked over to the living room and threw my bag next to the couch and went over to the kitchen trying not to pay attention to Colson. "There she is!....here come sit down talk with us." Jessica said handing me a plate. I quickly looked at all the food and decided to get some blueberry pancakes and a few strips of bacon. I decided to sit down next to Jessica and on my other side I had Baze staring at my food. "You want some?" I said biting into a bacon strip. "Naawww....I'm good and full but thanks." He quickly got up winked at us and rushed out the door. I looked over at Jessica and started laughing. "What's his problem?" "Don't know don't care.....we have more important things to talk about." I nodded my head while I started to cut the pancakes with my fork. "Like?" " Brenda.....she must know we stopped the tour and that we are here cause Colson calls Rookie everyday...and I mean seriously everyday." "HOLY.....mmmm...these pancakes are incredible!....Who made them?"I said getting another bite. "Are you serious right now......Guadalupe concentrate!" "OOhhh yeah sorry......but have you talked to Brenda?" I asked serving myself more pancakes. "Yeah......well not exactly....but she doesn't deserve me calling her. She's supposed to call me and apologize." I looked at her and smiled,"Apologize for what?.....What if it's just a misunderstanding.....and if it's not...you have no right you weren't even with Rook anymore." "Don't waste your time it's like talking to a wall." Colson said serving himself some orange juice. I didn't even notice him come into the kitchen and now that he was there I just kept eating my pancakes. "You shut up Colson.....what do you know. HuH?? You know why I didn't listen to you because you give the worst advice." Jessica said getting up from the chair. "You don't know shit about love....look at what you did to Guadalupe called her a whore and I don't know what else and treated her like shit and I'm supposed to listen to YOU? No offense.." She said serving herself some juice very calmly. I looked at her then at Colson who was bright red and almost choking on his juice. "I'm sorry about that I'm mad I didn't mean it......on the other hand look at Guadalupe she loves your pancakes Colson almost finished them all." Jessica said with a smile looking at Colson and me. I stopped eating and went over to the living room, I grabbed my bag and just headed out the door. I was driving around town in circles since I didn't have anywhere to go. After about an hour of driving around the same things I decided to go to a park. I headed straight for the swings when I got there and just sat there ignoring the world around me. I was finally going to swing when I felt someone's hand on my waist pushing me forward. I turned around in a desperate hurry and saw Colson. He chuckled and stopped the swing. I got up and started walking away. "WAIITT!" I stopped and turned around. He quickly stretched out his hand, "Hi, I'm Colson...I'm an asshole and I accept it. Nice to meet you." I couldn't help myself and cracked a smile. I shook his hand and smiled. "Hi, I'm Guadalupe.....and as much as I hate admitting it I'm attracted to assholes." "EEWWWW.....you nasty why not guys like every other girl?" Colson asked jokingly while making faces. I simply smiled and laughed "really?" "I'm just fucking with you....but thank you for giving me a chance to start new with you. I don't deserve it but I'm really glad you decided to give me one." he said while taking my hand and intertwining it with his. I looked down at our hands and decided to finally speak out my heart. " I like you I really do....you've made me feel like no one ever has, but...." He looked down to the ground and back up to me, "I knew it....it was going to smooth to be real." He took a deep breath and I continued. "But...I'm still trying to get over how you made me feel like utter shit." I said while I let go of his hand. "I'm sorry I really am.....but I don't wa...want you to stop talking to me. I don't care if we ta..talk about the weather, the news, music,tv I don't care as long as you promise me you won't stop talking to me." I looked back at him and shook my head."I also want you to think about giving me another chance at what we once had." He said. I was about to answer when he put his finger up to my lips. "Don't decide right now." I nodded my head once more and told him, "I gotta get back to the house and make sure it's not that big of a mess." I said walking away. I stopped and turned around, "Colson..." He excitedly ran over to me and stopped right in front. "Yeah?" "Who told you...or how did you even now I was here?" "Oohh that," He said as his smile disappeared,"Jessica said you usually came to this park when you were annoyed or sad." I smiled and walked away once again, not paying more attention to him. I got in my car and drove back to my house.