Honestly Today (Daniel Sahyounie)

Chapter 4

We walk in through the school gates into the court yard in front of Bodwell high I get stares from everyone. I hate it so much but there is nothing I can do "Shawn. Make it stop. Please" I plead to Shawn whispering so no one can hear my lack of confidence. "Just ignore it baby girl" Shawn said it loud enough where I can hear it and people near us can. Gasps leave the shocked mouths as they hear Shawn call me baby girl. We walk into the school to bring me to the office to get everything like my locker and classes, she passes me the paper with everything on it. "You have mostly every class with me, that's good" Shawn reads over my shoulder smiling causing me to smile back. We both walk through the loud halls flooded with other teenagers, it's so loud I can't handle it. So I do what I would always do with the booming sound pounding my ears causing an anxiety attack, even worse when I also have social anxiety. I turn in front of Shawn and just hug him in the middle of the halls till it all just goes away. We stand there for minutes feeling like hours waiting for the students to attend their class and the hallways are empty. I pull away and mutter a thank you under my breath, he just nods not knowing exactly what just happened but he has a worried look but doesn't ask assuming it's a very touchy subject. We continue our way to find my locker in complete silence as we turn down a hall I just lean up against a wall and drag to the floor. I need a minute to just sit and breathe. Shawn turns the corner as I'm almost to the ground sitting down with my knees brought to my chest and head bent down resting on my knees, he rushes over and sits down next to me and pulls me over to him, to rest my head on his chest and to focus on his breathing instead of everything else. Nothing but us. I swear this boy reads my mind and knows already what's going on "shh it's okay gorgeous" he says hushing me as his maroon shirt is catching tears falling from my brown eyes. I could stay here in his arms forever. I just stop thinking completely and just relax.

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Im awoken by the bell still in shawn's arms. I guess I fell asleep "we better get up before anyone sees us." I suggest to Shawn, we both get up and dust ourselves off then he puts his arm around me on our way to our next class. "So right now we're going into English with Mr. Humble, just walk in like you've been in here a thousand times so he won't notice you and make a big deal over you, a new student. Sound easy enough?" Shawn directs to me while walking to English. We walk in with his arm still around me, but now around my waist instead of my shoulders. I realize instead of desks, it's tables only seating four, one on each end and two on one side so we can all see the board. Who is sitting with me and Shawn? "Kay, so we will go and sit with two of my friends and introduce you to them instead of you sitting with three strangers without me which makes me uncomfortable, it'll be two strangers but with me so no one can say anything" Shawn explains the seating arrangement to me pulling my hips closer to his causing me to smile a little. We both walk. over to the desks to see two boys , one on each end. One is tall and has short brown quiffed hair, he's pale which is expected in Canada. He has light brown eyes. The other is a dirty blond, he's pale and tall too but he has bright green eyes, deep emerald green. Shawn and I continue our ways to the table "hi I'm Miles" the boy with green eyes greets me making eye contact which makes me feel more comfortable that he's looking me in the eyes and not wandering my body. "Hey I'm Joshua" the other spoke wandering my body with his eyes, it's quite obvious. Shawn notices almost immediately and puts his arm back around my waist and I pull myself as close to him as possible so Joshua knows I'm with Shawn and gets the hint to back off. "Alright class take your seats!" Mr.Humble orders the class. Shawn and I quickly sit down onto the chairs as the teacher starts with his boring lecture as I roll my eyes and put my hands up to my face and support my neck and head with my hands. I go off thinking about nonsense when I just start to draw simple little things on my notebook due to lack of interest in what the teacher has to say, I feel someone's eyes burning into me and my hands, I look around to see both Miles and Shawn watching me draw, I silently chuckle a little and go back to drawing while being stared at. I try to brush it off and I guess I was drawing for a long time because the entire paper was completely covered in little shapes made of graphite and because the bell had just rang dismissing class. Shawn and I both get up in unison grabbing our stuff to go to my eyes skim the paper with my classes typed on them. Math, Shawn and I missed social studies. I push in my chair and go to leave seeing as Shawn had already left. Great. I walk out the door and begin to wander the halls looking for my math class when a pair of arms wrap around my waist, I turn my head violently to see who had the nerve to do that. It was Shawn, i calm down "sorry if I scared you and for leaving you behind a bit" he says pleading for my forgiveness "it's okay" I accept shooting him a quick smile. We're just walking assuming he knows here we are going, I'm following right next to him. "Hey wait up!" A voice shouts just behind us, I'm assuming it's either Miles or Joshua because I don't know anyone else and the voice is a bit recognizable, the foot steps speed up as we slow down waiting for him. It's miles "hey Miles" I greet smiling, I feel shawns arm tense up around me so I look over to him, he clenched his jaw, obviously having a negative emotion filling his body "Hey Skylar" I never told him my name so I'm assuming that while I was drawing and zoned out of reality, Shawn told him. Miles walks next to me, too close for shawn's liking so he pulls me a lot closer than before and his arm tenses around my waist. I tap his hand causing him to look down at me I mouth "it's okay nothing will happen" he nods like he already knew that but his arm is still very tense around me. We enter the math class but in this class it's desks and not tables. There isn't two desks next to each other or even near each other open. "Sorry" Shawn says and walks off to a desk I walk to another one surrounded by girls, great. I look down and just draw to distract me "hey, you see her" "who" "her right in front of me" "oh yeah what about her" she's been walking around with shawns arm around her waist, she's a ugly whore" the girls behind me whisper giggling. I'm not doing this, I grab my bag, my notebook and pencil and storm out of class and run down the hall, I hear the door open again so I start to slow down. The foot steps are getting really close, I speed up a little and go into the girls bathroom so no one will see me. I go into a stall and slide down the wall. The door opens again, great. The stall door opens revealing Shawn. What is he doing, he can't be in here? He sits down next to me and just pulls me in for a hug and I just rest my head on his chest again listening to his heart beat. "Hey what happened?" His chest vibrates "they called me and ugly whore" "alright" Shawn gets up, hugs me then storms out. Really, you left when I needed you. Ok then. I get up and dust myself off and leave the girls room. I put my notebook and pencil in my back pack, I go to my locker, grab shawns sweatshirt and put it on. I turn around and walk out of the school and walk home trying to remember the way. I get home and go to my room. I get changed into sweatpants and a pink and blue jumper and get into my bed. I take a nap, only to be awoken 15 minutes later "where are you, I went back to the bathroom and you weren't there and checked the class you weren't there either?? - Shawn X" I hit my lock button and go back to sleep. Few hours later I wake up and decide to take a shower. Why did he ask where I was? Why does he care so much about me? Why does he always know what to do? I finish showering and change back into my sweatpants and but I just put on a bra and shawns sweatshirt. Why does he smell so goooddddddddd!? I go back over to my bed and check the time 5:30, 25 missed calls: Shawn, 37 texts, Shawn and Miles. I text Shawn back "hey I'm okay, I went home, you can come over if you want." "Okay, be there in a few XX" urg I don't want to face the world tomorrow. Wait, it's Friday. THANK GOD!!! I'm just going to sleep tomorrow "hey miles, how'd you get my number 😂😂" "it's a secret, love" ugh whatever, I still need to get ready so I don't look like trash when Shawn gets here. I walk over to my dresser and I get a pair of high waisted, ripped all the way down the legs white jeans and pair it with a black loose and flower cropped top with black low cut converse. I go over to my vanity to do my makeup I start applying concealer dabbing it under my eyes when there is a knock at the door, I haven't even finished putting rubbing in the concealer. UGHHH! I run down the stairs and open the door seeing Shawn in a pair of grey sweatpants and a black tee shirt  "uhh hang on I still have to put on my make up, you can sit down here or come up to my room and sit on my bed till I'm done" I explain to Shawn and quickly turn around so he won't see me without make up, I run up the stairs followed by Shawn and go into my room. He sits on the bed and I go back to my seat in front of the mirror, I continue smearing in my concealer and begin my foundation, then do my eyebrows a little, then winged eyeliner, followed by mascara "how do you do that thing with the brush on your eyelashes without stabbing your eyeballs?" He asks in curiosity I just shrug in response and turn around to face him. "We can go down stairs and watch some movies?" He nods and we run downstairs and plop onto the couch, I haven't seen anyone. Well my parents are at work from 4-noon and I don't even have a clue as of where Kaitlin is "uh you pick out a movie" I privilege Shawn a smile spreads upon his face as he quickly goes the listings of movies. He puts on Paranormal Activity 4 "ARE YOU KIDDING ME I HATE HORROR MOVIES!" I yell at Shawn, a mischievous grin spreads across his face. I snuggle into his chest but since he's slouched it's a bit uncomfortable and we are in a recliner so there aren't many positions, it's quite wide though so I turn and lay down on my side and rest my head on his thighs and hips and turn my head toward him, away from the horror movie. I eventually fall asleep like this. I wake up alone, I look around for Shawn and sees he's on the floor. Aww now I feel bad. I crawl down onto the floor and cuddle up to him, he turns a little putting us both on our side and he wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me as close as possible making me smile. I cuddle up and pull the blanket over us so we don't get cold and I guess I fell back asleep but the door closing and a cold breeze bites my now cold skin. I look up and see Kaitlin walking up the stairs. Again not home through the night."good morning baby girl" Shawn says in his morning voice smiling due to the surprise of me being in his arms.

A/N hey, I didn't meet my goal of 3,000 words, but got close with 2,400 words. Anyways, thanks for reading and when should I update and post?