Light in the darkness (septiplier)

9

Door locked.

Lights off.

The only sound that of my own breathing.

There was nothing to be done

There's always something to be done.

It struck so quickly

Lies. Sick, twisted lies.

I'm very sorry.

Sorry? That's it? You're the reason I had to leave him! You're the reason I wasn't there to help him! You're the reason I'll never see my father again!

My father died, cold, sick, and alone. The community is what took me from him. They're what condemned him to his death. They're the reason I can never fulfill my promise to him.

"Mark, Please open the door!" Someone pleaded from the other side. It had been two days since the news. Two days of self inflicted isolation. Two days of the silence only being broken by the occasional sob or whimper. I'd never heal. I refuse to heal. I could have been there. I should have been there.

It should have been me.

"Just eat something." They whine and I simply close my eyes. Why should I eat? He couldn't, so why should I?

"Let me talk to him, Jane." I hear another voice, one I recognize. "Mark, it's Tom. Please let me in so I can talk to you."

I freeze and wait silently, hoping he'll go away.

"Mark please." I hear him beg. "I need you right now, okay?"

I stood the moment the words left his mouth.

I then fell from the lack of blood circulation to my legs.

I curse and stand slowly, waddling to the door. My shaky hands unlock it slowly and open it enough to see his distraught face. He looked almost as bad as I did. My bottom lip trembled and I fell against him, sobbing harshly. I felt him shake as well which made my heart ache even more.

Why? Why did this have to happen?

First Sam

Then Felix

Now...

"D-dad." I sob into his shoulder. "H-he was all alone. I-I should have been there. I-I could have helped him." Tom holds me tightly and rubs my back shakily.

"I-its not your fault, Mark. I-it's nobody's fault."

That's not true. I know whose fault it is. It's not mine. It's not toms. It's theirs. The fuckers to stole us from him. The people who would mow down an entire planet if it was convenient. The sick bastards who took everything from us.

Tom stays with me for a few hours. I get on the computer eventually just to look for some comfort from my friends.

B: still nothing from him?
J: no. He refuses to step out of his room.
W: poor Mark.
Mark has joined the chat
W: Mark!
B: how are you doing buddy?
K: we're worried about you man
C: is he still here? It says he got on 5 minutes      ago
K: maybe it was a glitch.
J: guys
J: he's here

My eyes water as I type shakily.

M:I'm here
K: hey bud
W: are you alright?
B: of course he's not, wade
W: don't start that now bob
B: I'm just saying
K: will you two cut it out?
J: mark, has Tom come to see you?

I sniff softly. Why would he ask that?

M: yes. He's passed out next to me.
J: ask him about sector 20

I scowl.

M: if this is what i think it is
J: it is
M: you know what jack, Fuck you!

How dare he bring that shit up again! How dare he make this harder then it needs to be! Why couldn't he just let me mourn?!

M: my dad is dead and you bring up your stupid conspiracy theory?! What the hell is wrong with you?!

There was nothing for a few minutes when suddenly;

Jack has left the chat
B: damn mark
K: what's going on?
W: what was that all about?
M: fuck off!

I shut down the computer angrily and slam it on the nightstand, bursting into a new fit of sobs. What was he thinking? Why did he have to push this? I would punch him if he were here!

No... i wouldn't. I don't want to hurt him. I want him to hug me and tell me it'll be okay. I want him to be my boyfriend for ten fucking minutes. I want him to be my shoulder to cry on. I want him to actually show me he loves me, rather then just saying it.

Tom sits up and looks at me sadly. "What is it?" I just shake my head and curl into a ball as I sob. Tom sighs and moves closer, pulling me into a tight hug. I look up at him, my mind forcing the words from my mouth.

"W-what is sector 20?" 

Tom freezes and looks down at me. "Why do you ask?"

"S- jack was talking about it." I mumble. He nods slowly and pulls away.

"Sector 20 is an old wives tale here. It's more commonly referred to as the data dump but...  no ones broken in, that I know of anyway."

I frown. "What's so special about it?"

Tom sighs. "It supposedly holds the big secrets that the community doesn't want shared."

I stand slowly. "W-what kind of big secrets?"

He shrugs. "I don't know. That's kinda the point."

I shake my head and close my eyes. God damn it! I was sucked in now. "What do you think is in there?" He mumble.

He sighs and looks away. "I don't think they're telling us something important. I don't necessarily agree with their methods on some things but... I think there's something darker here. Jack asked me about it a few days ago."

"D-did he says what he was going to do with it?" I ask slowly.

Tom shakes his head. "No. He asked me to tell you about it but after... dad... I kinda spaced it."

I nod and look towards my laptop. "Where is it?"

"Huh?" He asks.

"Sector 20... where is it?"

"Why do you want to know?" He asks worriedly. "You aren't going to try breaking in. I won't let you."

"What are you gonna do?" I snap. "Tell on me?!"

He sighs and looks at me sadly. "You know I wouldn't do that. I just... I can't lose you too." 

I move to sit beside him and pull him into a hug. "I need to know what's going on, Tom. Between Felix and Dad... there's something here. I need to know."

Tom sighs and nods. "It should be on the very top floor. In the restricted section. If it's really, that's where it would be."

I nod. "Thank you Tom." He looks away and I can see just how much pain he's in. I sigh and hug him tightly. "I love you."

"I love you too, little brother." He mumbles. "Just... don't do anything stupid."

"You seem to forget who you're talking to." I joke. "I'm always stupid."