Never a dream

I'm Sorry. (Part 2)

Seokjin's POV

I went to the park that the vendor mentioned just now. Indeed. She was there, sitting on the bench with her head hung low.

I walked towards her, slowly and quietly. I heard her mumbling. But I'm can't really hear what is it about.

I sat next to her and looked at her. She looked up and turns to me.

Shocked. That's how I feel now.

I was shocked when I see her face- wet with tears still flowing. She had never cried this hard before. Never. Even after I debut, she never cried this hard. I tried to recall what will make her cry so hard. The only reason I could think of is, misunderstand. She hates being mistaken by people- not those mistaken like she saw someone she THOUGHT was someone she knew. That's what she hates most. And I just did that to her.

What's gotten into me? How can I accuse her for being ridiculous when all she wanted was me by her side? Terrible.

I've really gone too far. I was too harsh on her.

She turned her head away immediately when she saw me sitting beside her.

Guess she didn't want me to see her crying and making me feel bad.

But, damn, I really feel like I'm a bad brother.

I'm sorry, mum and dad.

I pull YoonMin into an embrace. She was shivering. I don't know whether is it because of the cold or because she was crying too hard.

"I'm sorry." I rubbed her back.

"I'm really sorry." I kissed the crown of her head.

"I shouldn't have blamed you." I rubbed her back again.

"I should've known how hard is it for a person who hates loneliness being alone." I caressed her hair.

"I'm really, really, really, really sorry." I apologized.

I know no matter how much I apologize, what's done can't be undone.

Your POV

Oppa hugged me for like 'God-knows-how-long'. I pulled away.

"Are you okay?" Oppa asked as he caressed my cheek with his thumb. I nodded.

Oppa apologized again. I know Oppa didn't do it on purpose. Most probably because he's stressed out about the intense training at work. As you know, he's not the best dancer in that group. In fact, he's one of the worst dancers. But, no matter what, he always practices hard.

Whenever there's time, he practices. He can rest like anyone of us. But he chose to work hard and practice hard. For the sake of the group.

For the sake of fans.

For the sake of me.

At this moment, I felt like I'm so childish. It feels like I always want people to apologize first. Maybe I have been spoilt by oppa.

"I'm really sorry, YoonMin ah. I didn't mean to scold you in front of so many people. I was the ridiculous one. I wasn't putting myself in your shoes, thinking how it would be to be alone. I'm really sorry."

"Oppa. I don't blame you for that. Everyone always think of themselves first. Who will think of other people first? People know that they should care for themselves first. But, oppa. You know what?" Oppa looked at me- wanting me to carry on.

"You're my only kin left in this world. Although you're not by my side, I know you'll always be there. To catch me when I fall, and encourage me to go on. To lend me your shoulder," I laid my head on his shoulder.

"And give me a warm hug when I'm feeling down." I hugged his waist and he hugged me back, patting my back at the same time.

"To lend me a listening ear when I need someone to rant to. Although sometimes you might fall asleep during our phone call conversation, but I understand that because you're tired. But oppa. You're all I have. You have to know. You must know. I won't blame you nor hate you because of that. I'm just sad that that's how you think about me."

"No. No. I didn't think you as ridiculous nor acting pity. It's just... I don't know what has gotten into me. I was..." I looped my arms around oppa's neck.

"It's okay, oppa. I understand. I don't blame you. Really. I don't lie."

"You sure you don't lie? Then what was that when you were high school?" I pulled away.

"That's not even counted! I couldn't contact you and the vacancies are like getting lesser and lesser. That means my chance of going is like smaller and smaller. I was forced to do so, oppa."

Don't rake the past up, dude.

"Okay. That's my fault, okay?" I nodded.

"How did you know that I'm here anyway?" I continued.

Did oppa learn how to read people's mind?

"The vendor told me. She told me you always go there whenever you miss me. That's why you don't even need to order and she knows exactly what to serve. You really miss me a lot, huh?" I blushed.

"Even if that's the case, so what? It doesn't mean anything." He smiled.

"Okay. I know." Oppa wrapped his arm around my shoulder- pulling me closer to his side.

"Next time I should just meet you there. At least we can eat together and talk to one another. Even though the time might be short. But at least better than nothing." I turn to face him.

"Really? We're going to meet?" He turns to face me too.

"Provided that my manager allows that." I pouted.

"Kidding. I'll try no matter what. For my princess."

It feels so good to have a brother like you, Kim Seokjin. Thank you.