Ashley's Special Poems (Attys)

My Dear Brother

I wish I could tell you how much you scared me

I wish I could tell you how painful it was to see our parents hurt

But I know that if I tell you this you would not listen to me

And I am worried that I would lose you forever by telling you my feelings

I could not even cry because I did not want our parents to worry about me

They had enough to worry about without me adding to their pain

Trust me brother we did not want to do this to you but you were not yourself

We all were so upset about it that we could barely eat a thing

You are my little brother and I am supposed to protect you

But for some reason I did not see how depressed you really were brother

I must have been blind because when I look back at it it was so obvious

It is all my fault because had I known I could have helped you out

I guess that I have not been a very good big sister lately

I should have been there for you when you needed me

But I thought you were a happy go lucky kid who loved to make people laugh

I should have known that you were fighting your own secret battle

I wish that you could see how out of control you were that night

Then maybe you would trust me and our parents like you did before

I do not know this person you are right now and I miss the old you

I would give anything to have the little brother that I knew so well back

Ashley Franco

PS. This was back in 2007 when my brother was going through a bipolar episode! I finally have him back! It may have taken four years and three breakdowns but I have my baby brother back!