Heartbreaks & Promises

Chapter 4 : So Confused

Imani P.O.V

When Me & Kayla Left The Park We Went Too Cold Stone For Some Ice Cream As We Were Sitting She Was Telling Me About A Dude She Met Named Tay. I Was Eating My Ice Cream Not Really Paying Attention Too Kayla I Was Too Busy Day Dreaming About Ahkeem "MANI" I Heard Kayla Yell

Me:Huh ?

Kayla: We're You Listening Too Anything I Said ?

Me: No , Not Really

Kayla: Ugh , You Make Me Sick Sometimes

I Laughed This Girl Crazy Ass Hell.

Me: I Sorry Kayla Boo , I Was Just Thinking

Kayla: Mhmm , Of That Boy I Seen You Talking Too

Me: Whatever Ho' How Would You Know When You Was Too Busy With Tay.

Kayla: Whatever.

Me: What We Gone Wear Too This Party Saturday ?

Kayla: I Dont Know I Was Gone Ask You The Same Question

Me: You Wanna Go Shopping After School Tomorrow ?

Kayla: Why You Even Ask , Of Course I Do

Me: Shut Up Ho' Let's Go

After We Left Cold Stone I Dropped Kayla Off Home And I Was On My Way Too My House. Once I Made It Inside My House I Called For My Mama Too Find Her In The Kitchen Cooking

Me: Hey Ma

Her: Hey Baby , Did You Have Fun ?

Me:Somewhat I Got Into A Fight

Her: Where & With Who ?

Me: At The Park With Some Girls

Her: Did You Win ?

Me: Of Course , But This Boy Came And Pulled Me Off Her Before I Did Some Serious Damage .

Her:Did He Ask You Out ?

Me: No , But He Asked For My Number

Her:Did You Give It Too Him ?

Me: Nopeee

Her: Why ? Was He Ugly ?

Me:No , He Was Fine As Hell ,

Her: So Why Didnt You Give It Too Him ?

Me: I Dont Know , I Guess Im Just Not Ready Too Talk Too Anyone But I Told Him If Its Meant Too Be We'll See Each Other Again

Her: Look At You Trying Too Play Hard Too Get .

Me: Not At All

Her: Okay , Go Wash Your Hands The Food Finish

Me:Kay

Her: Quan

Quan:Yess

Her: Come Eat

I Sat Down At The Table While My Mama Was Fixing Plates Of Lasagna And Texas Toast And Homemade Tea

After dinner I took a shower and lotion my body I didn't really feel like putting on clothes so I just put on my sports bra and some boy shorts and pulled out what I was wearing to school tomorrow. I finally laid down and grabbed my phone off my nightstand and checked my Instagram , Facebook , and Twitter. After all that I started to think of ahkeem and drifted into a deep sleep.

The next morning I woke up and did my morning routine and dressed in a blue high low skirt a white t-shirt a cut of sleeves jean jacket and my white toms and added my gold chain and my gold studds I looked at myself in my mirror and took a couple of pictures an uploaded it to Instagram.I walked downstairs got my car keys went to the kitchen to grab a apple and a flavored water and yelled for my brother Quan to come on when he finally came downstairs we were out the house and on our way to school.When I pulled up to the school parking lot it was crowed my brother got out and ran to his group of friends while I went to go find Kayla when I did find her she was with Tay hugged up I was kind of confused cause I didn't even know he went here call me crazy but I really never seen him around school as I was standing there wondering where the hell he came from I heard someone call my name I turned around and seen that it was Ahkeem standing behide me looking even better than he did yesterday.

Me: Hi

Ahkeem: Wassup Ma ?

Me:Nothing , when did you start coming here I asked getting straight to the point

Ahkeem: Since 9th grade

Me: O. I never seen you around

Ahkeem: I be around you just don't see me

Me:"Okay" I begin too turn around and walk away but he stopped me again

Ahkeem: Can I talk to you for a min at least ?

Me:Sure Wassup ?

Ahkeem: I aint gone lie Im feeling you yea I know we barley know each other but I wanna get to know you so what do you say ?

Me: I was shocked as hell he doesn't seem to be the one that tell girls how he feel . "Ahkeem I don't know what to say honestly I've been through this kind of thing before you tell girls what they wanna hear and expect for them to fall for you and I don't wanna be "ONE" Of them girls so ill think about it

Ahkeem: Look Ma I understand but Im being honest about this I wouldn't lie to you after the park I went home and only thought about you I don't know what it is but Im really feeling you.

Me:I really wanted to say yes but I couldn't I didn't want to put my heart into something that I would regret because it was based off a lie. "Ahkeem ill think about it" I said just above a whisper.

As soon as I walked away the bell rung indicating we had 5mins to get homeroom I was walking slowly because I was still thinking about what ahkeem just told me. When I finally made it to my homeroom we had 1min left I went and sat in the back and put my head down I really Wasnt in the mood to do no work when the final bell rung everybody came walking in and took their seats.

"Girl I heard ahkeem got money Im bout to go put it on him"

I looked up to see it was mya the school biggest hoe talking about ahkeem. I wanted to get up and set her straight but then i thought about the fact he wasnt mine I laugh at the thought that she right maybe she can get him. I was so wrapped up in my thoughts I didn't even realize the teacher was talking and giving us an assignment I quickly pulled out my notebook and pen and started to do our journal for today

"Write a paragraph about your feelings (it can be in a poem)"

"A SHATTERED HEART"

"Some say a broken heart is like a shattered vase

Fragile pieces scattered all over the place.

The shattered pieces of broken glass seem to go everywhere

Unlike the pieces of a broken heart that seem to pierce your soul.

With faith and hope you try to mend the broken heart

Unlike the vase it cannot be so easily replaced.

It takes a while to mend it and then you lock it up

You hide the key and wait to see if someone can be found

A special person who will use the key to unlock the heart

A unique person who will handle the heart with gentle hands,

Who can be honest, truthful and handle it with care.

My heart and I wonder is there really that kind of person out there."

After I finished my poem the bell rung meaning it was time for our next class which was gym for me I went to my locker and put on my white tank top and purple gym shorts and my white Samoa Adidas and went to the track as I was stretching I notice a group of boys on the football field doing their excerise. Once I was done with my stretching I put my head phones in and started my run around the track this is the only way I can relax my mind after my run I went back inside to the gym lockers and freshen up once I got my self together the next bell rung signaling that it was time for lunch . At lunch I met up with my boo Kayla and we went in the pizza line and got our stuff and sat down at our table as I was eating I looked up too see ahkeem with some girl all up in his ear I laughed to myself because Im glad I didn't fall for all that Im feeling you Sh.t I just shook my head and got up and left good thing it was a half a day for seniors I was ready too leave. As I was walking to the parking lot Ahkeem walked up to me and offered me a ride I shook my head "no I have my own car" I said with a little attitude he looked at me kind of shocked but I didn't care. I was confused