On My Way Home

More To It

We held each other for at least 10 more minutes before he had to go. The person that came to see him had a fit. The party was fun while it lasted. My first mom called and said she saw me flirting with a guy at the store. She called me names over the phone and when I hung up she texted them. I don't know why she keeps hurting me like this. I don't understand.... I never did anything to disappoint her. I had mostly good grades. I helped her out a lot. I was so sweet to her.

I left crying because I couldn't find Mitch. That's okay though. It's nothing I can't deal with. I got home and went to my room. Privacy at last. Mitch. Just him. All that was in my head for the rest of the night. I only barely know him yet he's making me feel so weird. I'm not used to feeling loved. Or cared for. I don't know what I'm feeling but I don't hate it. He made me feel safe. Strong.

I dreamt about him. We were at his house. The decorations were still up. We were the only ones there. We watched Netflix. That's it. That was the entire dream. And it was one of the best I'd ever had. I woke up smiling but after i remembered where I was the happiness got drained from me. It couldn't be real. No one will love me. No one can. He's probably straight anyways.

Just then my phone began to buzz. Must've left it on vibrate. I looked at the caller ID- unknown. Hm. Of course right when I brought it to my ear I knew who.

"Hey. Scott." he said. A smile spread a cross my face immediately.

"Hey, Mitch." I said. My heart started pumping rapidly inside my chest.

"Are you busy?" he asked. I could feel heat rising to my face.

"N-no. Not right now. Why?" My voice was shaky.

"Well, will you meet me outside Starbucks? I have something for you.."

"Y-Yeah," I said ,"be there soon." And with that he hung up. I mentally punched myself in the face for sounding so stupid. But I need to get ready.

I throw on a pair of black skinny jeans and my black and red flannel that says "Flawless" on the back in bold white letters. I didn't have to drive because it turns out I live just a street down from Starbucks. I open my front door and begin my journey. As soon as I get close I see Mitch standing by the door. He's wearing a black and yellow shirt with a denim jacket and black skinny jeans. Woah he's hot. He was holding a bag and two drinks.

"Hey." We said simultaneously followed by a giggle from both of us. He pulled cookies out of the bag and gave me my drink. How did he know I liked this?

"Care to join me for a date?" he asked and winked at me.

"I'd love to." I smiled and we went inside. He held The door for me. The smell of coffee filled my nose and I sighed. Smells good. We found a small table in the back corner and placed our drinks down. He handed me a cookie but I placed it on a napkin.

"Do you not like cookies?" he asked

"No, I like them. I'm just trying to watch what I eat..." I spoke quiet. He knows. I can tell by the look in his eyes.

"Eat the cookie. Please? Scott, you're beautiful to me and I don't think you need to lose weight. If anything you need to gain it.. I felt your ribs pushing my chest the other day when we hugged. Its unhealthy. I care for you and I want you to know that your weight is perfect. Just like the rest of you." He smiled right after and I felt my cheeks getting warm.

"I don't need the calories. I ate this morning. I'll be okay." I lied. "Thank you though." He gave me the you're kidding me right? look. Erm.

"Scott. Listen to me. You are amazing. I promise you that you are so handsome and the perfect size. Please trust me. And enjoy a cookie. Its just one."

"There's more to it than just trusting you -which I do. I don't like the way I look. I actually hate it. I hate me. I think I'm huge. And I don't know if there's anything that will change that. I will eat the cookie but I'm not gonna be happy about it. Thank you though." he raised his fists in the air with victory as I took the first bite.

"Yaaayyyyyyy!" he yelled. He's so cute. This is going to be fun.

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