Unfortunate: K&G

11:15

 The alarm on my phone didn't wake me up today, I'd been up all night trying to figure out ways to forgive and forget. Mainly forget though.
I stood in the shower for at least 2 hrs, not washing. Just absent minded, staring out the window letting the warm water hit my back the pressure this morning was extremely forceful it felt like kind of like a mini massage.
As I peered out the window through the metal bars I'd catch myself staring at these random shapes and faces that I'd see very often when I just stayed idle and watching anything, I liked it. It made me feel unique.
My mother woke up at exactly 6:09 , and of course she banged on the door telling me " hurry. The Fuck. Up."  So I did , wasn't really in a mood to be confrontational.

I caught the C train at 10:00 that meant I'd be on time for school. That was something I never could do . The walk from the train station to the school building felt long, i had music on the way but i wasn't really listening, so who knows how long it took me to actually get to the store and order my Bacon Egg And Cheese , Pay for it, walk across the street, walk in the building, swipe my I.D. say Hi to Mr. Jordan and walk down the long hallway to my first period. Theater, I hate this class bruh 😒.
I hope today goes extremely smooth .
11:15 a.m.
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Keema sat in Ms. Kim's Improv Class and ate her breakfast while everyone wrote down the objective and did a journal entry and had small chit chat. She didn't really speak much there was just too much going on in her head. She sat with her head down in her phone the whole time. She was on KIK with her best friend Ayasia tryna figure out how to hop out her feelings and get in her bag.
Lunch was at 1:00, Keema sat at lunch with her friends Ayasia, Tia, Mariah, and Shay. All of them were gossiping about whatever drama was going on in the school, Keema and Ayasia were going over how to get her a new jawn, when Tia Interrupted them to ask if they'd seen the new girl. Keema said no obviously, being that she had ruled school a dub for the day. Tia started to describe her
" Giiirl ! She look mad good like, she got nice wavy hair she always wears in two braids or a bun. Her style is so calm ! She wear Jordans, Vans, Uggs, and a lot of H&M. Y'all gotta see her !"
The girls were all trying to put the description to a face. Keema asked
" what's her name though "
" Deadass how you describing a jawn with no name " Mariah said.
" Riiiiight what if u wanted her Facebook ? Sheeeshhh Tia , you deadass suck"
Shay Yelled at Tia.
" Oh yeah, her name is ummm.... Ge'Elle. I think thats how you pronounce it. It's foreign or whatever " Tia said with a bird voice.
" Uhkaaaayyy FOREIGN Papi"  Keema said with her tongue out.
Ayasia looked her up on Facebook and found her real quick. She showed everyone at the table all her profile pictures, they all fan girled over her for the rest of the lunch period.

After lunch Keema had Yoga with her Best friend . That was always the highlight of her day because they acted a hot ass mess, on the low though.
Keema never admitted it but Yoga helped her relax and sort things out in her mind. She'd always hear in her head Mrs. Y saying
" Breathe. Relax. Let your thoughts flow let them come to you, but do not dwell on them. Remember to let them go let them pass on."
That was what Keema set as her goal. To acknowledge the things that happen in life but to not dwell on them, to let them pass on. It was an extremely hard goal to obtain but she was a work in progress.
As Yoga came to an end, along with the school day Keema prepared her self for work. She worked at a local Daycare. Keema loved kids, she always wanted a brother or sister but her mother was unable to have one .
Keema and the girls left school and headed to the bus . The bus stop was right outside of school , so you know that bus stop was packed with the entire senior class . 
" Ayasia , so like you think this Ge'Elle girl cute too ? Cause she definitely bae right now "
" Key, girl she look Helllaa good " Ayasia said
" But the question is does she like Girls like her... You know? No labels, studs tomboys...like me" Keema said unsure if she should continue this lil crush.
All day at work Keema thought about this Ge'Elle girl, trying to figure out if she was even S4S or if she liked them basic fems.