I'm Fine

Chapter 6 - In Love

 It has been a long time since I was able to talk about Leila like that . I really miss saying good things about her . I miss the feeling of having her in my life . That feeling where I know I am safe , that I have someone who is there for me whenever I needed it or not . She was my family , my sister , my friend , my love , my life .

 It's raining outside . The wind is howling loudly . Shivers goes up my spine whenever I hear the thunder . It feels like the lightning that follows it is aiming for me as it's target . I'm getting emotional again . But I still want to tell you more of what happened . I want someone to understand what I am going through right now . I hope you won't judge me . You may not understand or care about me , but I want to know how great Leila was .

Leila POV 

When Asia entered that tent I was already asleep but when I realized she was there I knew I have to do something with my curiosity . I have always thought that my friendship with Asia is special . But I never realized it was this special . 

Ever since our delightful kiss and hour ago , my body has been longing for more . We have been friends since 5 and she has been really honest with me about everything . I just thought she is so innocent and naive that I can't be too honest with her . I really worried about her right now . She might be so confused about what's going on . I'm not . 

I like Asia more than a friend since 3rd grade , I realized that when a boy from our class talked to me and confessed he likes Asia . Who wouldn't ? She has this round face , cute nose , most radiant skin I ever seen , although her eyeglasses hides her eyes in a way , once you look her in the eye you'll be hypnotized . Deep set brown eyes, long lashes . Believe me , I can go on forever telling you how gorgeous she is . She's smart and funny , bratty yet kind , she is wonderful , simply amazing . What I am trying to tell you is , I AM INLOVE WITH HER . I don't know if I consider myself a lesbian but I cannot admit it to anyone . 

She was lying beside me inside our tent I can't help but want her touch , so I kind of tricked her into it . We made passionate love , at least from my point of view that is . I came and it feels so amazing . Now I am wondering how will she react to it . She is now sleeping soundly still hugging me from my waist , I have always loved that feeling . I hope what happened will not ruin our friendship . I hope she will come to the same realizations as I have and tell me she feels the same way .

Asia POV

 Sun is up , it's already 7am when I checked my phone . Leila is gone . I woke up lying on our sleeping bag alone . I hear her with Sarah and Jackie . They're outside the tent cooking something maybe for breakfast . I suddenly remembered what happened last night and it felt awkward for me to come out and talk to Leila like nothing really happened . I summoned all the natures powers to drag me outside and I did . I smiled at them . 

"What's cooking doc ?" in my best Bugs Bunny impression . 

"Eggs and bacon , some Spam that Jackie brought . " she said smiling . 

An awkward silence followed through between us . I really don't know what else to say . I sat beside her and talked a little .