Only He Can Do It.

3.

I'm sitting here looking up at my ceiling. My arms and legs spread out so no two parts of my body are touching. I just need to process what I'm getting myself into. I chose this so I'm going to stand by this decision.

It's school today.

My mum is so stressed with work that she doesn't have the time to take me to the new school and talk to the headteacher herself. I don't mind really, I understand that she's got life twice as hard as me.

So.

Benny's taking me. Benny's my older brother, he is only two years older than me but he is so protective. He lives in New Zealand, he moved there after seeing how much of an amazing place it is but he's back in London for a bit to relax with us.

I appreciate his presence. Even when he is out in NZ we have stayed close, to be honest, probably closer because we rely on each other. Our parents are completely out of the question. Mum is always busy with work. And Dad. Well. Let's just say he isn't quite with us anymore. He passed away when I was 12, been a few years but the wounds of my heart because of it are far from healing. Still fresh actually. Its a process.

Its 7.30am and I can hear Benny shuffling out of his room coming to my door. He knocks. I just pause my thoughts for a second. 'Come in' I say to my older brother. 'Morning' he says as he walks into my room. He's picked up a hint of the Kiwi accent which I find funny. I giggle because of it, he just laughs and sits at the end of my bed.

I'm still lying down, I shuffle around a bit into a more comfy position. 'Nervous?' My brother asks. He knows me too well, I haven't even said anything yet but he knows. I sit up to look at him 'Benny...what if I mess up again? What if they pick on me like they used to? I want this, I really do but I don't know if I'm gonna be able to handle this'

It just seems as though I'm ranting on about my 'what its' but I need to let my emotions out and I know that Benny is the only one who understands me. He sits there patiently and waits for me to finish with all my questions.

'Alisa.' He says sternly but I just look down fumbling with my thumbs. Is it me or are thumbs fascinating, well it seems like that a lot when I can't handle some situations. Most of the time then. 'Look at me' he says, I just do as I'm told to save time and try feel better because I know he will try for me. 'You've got this. You're one of those people who commit to whatever they want. I know what happened in the past was horrible, I don't know myself how you coped with it but you've stayed strong. Look where you are now. You're a fighter and just because you didn't win the battle of school before, who says to be a victor you need to go to battle once? You're gonna be great, I promise you that.'

I sit there all teary eyed because Benny is the only one who can give me true words and for them to mean something great. I'm grateful for that, I don't have many people in my life but for those I do have, they are the best for me.

'Get up, get ready and let's get this day over with. I'll drive you over and speak to the headteacher myself.' Benny says as he gets up from your bed to let you get on with it.

'Benny,' You almost whisper because your brother's little motivational speech is still echoing through your mind. 'Yes, Ali' he turned to face you and gives me a small smile 'Thanks.' You say to him and you see his eyes beam with pride. 'No worries. I haven't even done anything yet. With that he walks out of the room and closes the door behind you.

Get up, get ready and let's get this day over with.

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