Wings {Clint Barton, Avengers}

Chapter 5: Breaking Point

{Emma's P.O.V}

I look at him and said "I think that I'm already broken, yet I'm trying to repair myself so no one knows. All the pain that's in my eyes was supposed to be hidden. All my pain is supposed to be hidden. But for some reason today it won't go away." He looked at me and said "Emma your pain doesn't have to be hidden, you can let it out but why won't you?" "Clint my pain is hidden for a reason. Everything I do has a reason. And I think the pain is showing because I am starting to remember everything. So I need to go to the gym and do gymnastics and do..." "Emma what were you going to say?" "Nothing Clint but I'm gonna go now, please don't follow, go practice or something." I walked away and went to the gym.

{Clint's P.O.V}

She shouldn't have said that. Now I'm going to follow her. She needs to open up eventually like Nat did. But what is she hiding? I already know about the gymnastics but the other thing?
I followed her to the gym but then she walked toward the vent on the floor. I followed her and saw that she dropped into a dance studio. What is she going to do?
She turned on a song and she started doing ballet and dancing to it. I watched completely mesmerized. Wow she looks amazing and beautiful. Wait don't think like that. It will turn out bad. She started crying while dancing and I saw the pain that she was trying to hide from me. I used the com to talk to Nat. "Nat did you know that Emma does ballet? But for some reason she is crying and I can see her pain in her eyes." Nat replied with "Wait she does ballet? Where are you?! I want to see her but what are you talking about? What pain in her eyes?" "She slipped up saying to me that if she looks at me in the eyes I will see the pain that she hides then she mumbled to herself sh*t I wasn't supposed to say that. Then she was trying to make me forget what she said! I am in the vent above the dance studio." Then Nat just came out of nowhere and I saw her. Nat said to me "Wow she's good. Think she is remembering moves from the Red Room (RR)...Wait I wasn't supposed to tell you about that." "Great Emma is keeping another thing from me! Why won't she tell me?" "Clint I think she is keeping it from you so you don't worry and just do what you have to." "But she never lets anything show. Nat she needs to do it at some point!" Nat looked at Emma and saw the pain in her eyes. "Wow you were right you can see all the pain in her! It looks like she's been keeping that in forever!" "I know Nat! I don't know what to do!" Nat looked at me "Pretend to walk in through the door and say that you were wandering around and try to get her to talk to you." So I did as she said.
{Emma's P.O.V}
I was dancing for about 15 minutes when the songs stopped. I looked over to the door and saw Clint. "Clint I said not to follow me here!" He replied with "I was wandering the halls and I noticed this door. I have never been in here so I walked in and saw you." I looked away to quickly wipe my eyes but before I could Clint was in front of me holding my wrists. He said "Emma look at me and please tell me what's wrong!" I could see that me bottling this up was hurting him. I sighed, looked him in the eyes and said "Clint the pain is that once I start to remember things it hurts me and then I feel pain. Then everything gets wiped away when I get the next memory. It hurts to be going nowhere and when I try to write the memory down it goes away. So no matter what I do I can't remember anything. It hurts to see people with all their memories and they can tell you everything about their past. I can't do anything about it so when I look people in the eyes or when I end up touching someone, I see all of their past. I don't like it and it's not fun. You don't have this so you don't have to do it. That's why when the first time you grabbed my shoulder after I got the powers I had a glaze over my eyes. Yes I know about that. And now when I started dancing I remember that in the RR they used to do things to you if you didn't do it right. But I can't stop dancing it's a habit that I can't break, I tried to stop for about a month but for some reason the next day I had to go to the studio. That's all of my pain Clint that's why I said that you just need to forget it." He looked at me and said "Emma you know that if you talk to people it will help. Like you don't need to go to anyone stranger talk to me or Nat or someone you trust. And if you look me in the eyes I will try and help you get rid of the pain or have Bruce try to find something that will help you. So please Emma just talk to me about this stuff! You don't understand how much it hurts to see you not talking to me or away doing your own thing while crying. So please if you need come to me if something bad happens to you!" I look at the floor then he grabs my chin gently and makes me look at him, so I hug him. That way I can be fine and so I don't have to have him try and see the pain that I hide. He hugs back straight away and we just stand there for awhile. He then grabs my face and uses his thumbs to wipe away all my tears. I chuckle because I just remembered "Clint you were right and I think I reached my breaking point." He chuckled to and I felt his chest vibrate because I was still hugging him. He said to me "Emma do you still want to fight this war against Loki or do you want to stay here?" I look up and say "I have to fight remember I'm the one that has the wings!" All of a sudden I hear Fury say "Emma and Clint I'm sorry I didn't say this to you two earlier but I figured you would want to talk but Phil is dead. They called it and we have to fight soon." I replied with "Thank you for telling us and I will finally agree to bring in the Avengers. Phil told me he wanted me to be in it so I will." Fury chuckles and says "Good job Emma I hope you do good in the fight." I say thanks and then Clint and I leave.