dms: timmy connors

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A/N: THIS IS THE MOST CRUCIAL CHAPTER I HAVE EVER WRITTEN

van: I still don't know what you're talking about
fuckboy: oh my god🙄
van: WELL

fuckboy is calling....

accept?
....
decline?

reluctantly she accepted.

"what?" she answered angrily.

"hello to you too," he remarked sarcastically.

"what are you talking about in your texts?" she asked.

"I was sitting in my hotel room-"

"with or without kay?" vanessa interrupted.

"ugh, let me talk, without. and I was sad, because you like went home with nick. because that should be me. you should come to me when you need things."

"why? why on earth would I do that?"

"because, because," he stuttered for a response, "because I need you and I need you to need me back."

"you need me like you need a goddamned hole in your head."

"what?" he asked desperately, "I don't need a hole in my head...oh."

"yeah, exactly."

"so, what does this mean? you don't care about me?"

"no! what the fuck? god, you're so stupid."

"what?" he asked again.

"do I need to spell it out for you??" she sighed, tired of holding her feelings in, "I love you, timothy, yeah I know you hate being called that, but I don't care."

"you- you love me?" he asked in disbelief.

"more than anything," vanessa felt tears well in her eyes, "it's just so hard to love you."

"why?"

"because, you don't love me." saying the words aloud made her start to cry full on.

"yes, I do." he replied, "I love you so much."

"you tell everyone that. I really, really thought that when we met at the airport that, I don't know, we would be together. that was stupid, I know. but I loved you and I wanted you to be mine. mine, can you believe I thought you would be mine?" she laughed at herself.

"stop." timmy said, "stop saying those things, I love you too. fuck that, I love you more."

"I love you so much more than you could ever imagine. all this shit I've been doing with nick, it's because I want to forget about you. I want to forget that I ever loved you."

"don't do anything else with him, you're mine."

"are you mine?"

"as long as you want me to be."

"that's forever."

"then I'll be yours forever."

"what if that's not long enough?"

"then we'll make more time." he confirmed.

a/n: sOMEONE TELL ME WHY IM CRYING OVER MY OWN FANFIC