Private Tutor (Teacher, Golden Freddy X Student reader)

Chapter six. Abortion

(Readers P.O.V)

I stared out the window of Shades car, still slightly confused about our encounter with Jimmy. To be honest, who Shade talked about was the last thing on my mind. I bit my nails and  chewed away at my bottom lip. I could move out in one year, one year and I could get away from that horrible women. "Can ask why you were crying?"
I turned and looked at him. I snapped while I didn't want to. "Why the fuck do you care?"
He flinched a little at the sound of my voice. "Because your my student. And it's not often I find my students fleeing their home with tears in their eyes," he mumbled
I sighed and nodded. He was right, and sooner or later. "My mother and I got into a fight over money, again... Though money is not a problem in my life, it is for my mom. My father.... Sends money to me for school funds because my mom refuses to pay them. 'A waste of time and money' she says." I took a deep breath, my voice already shaking. "She found out and freaked. 'Get your own money and stop going to your useless father.'  Was all she would say to me. I didn't answer, I just wanted to get away from her and go to my room. So...I mumbled a quick bye and she grabbed my arm and slapped me. It wasn't the first time." I lowered my voice to a whisper.
I hadn't noticed he stopped the car and pulled into a empty parking lot. He watched me silently and waited for me to continue. I took a another deep breath and looked away from his watching white eyes. "She glared at me and pushed me away roughly, my arm had started bleeding from her fucking vampire nails digging into my skin. 'I should have aborted you when I had the chance. But no! Your useless excuse of a father wanted to keep you. Should have let me kill you. You fucking disappoint!' So I grabbed my bag and ran out of the house and into you." I finished.
And suddenly I was laughing. It wasn't because I found it funny but because I didn't know how to respond. "The sad thing is, I already knew she was going to abort me before I was born. Hell there was notebook after notebook about how she was going to have this huge fucking disappoint inside of her and she couldn't kill it because she would lose my dad!" Shade was shocked
"Hahahah! To think I thought it was just because she didn't know what to do yet. But no she really hates me, not like she's mad at me but really fucking hates me! Maybe I should just grant her fucking wish and kill myself....I'm already half way there." I dropped my head to my knees shaking uncontrollably.
Shade was silent, he hadn't said a word. I started to think that he thought I was crazy and would ask my mom to fire him so he wouldn't have to deal with my sob stories. The car didn't move and he didn't speak and it was almost like time had stopped. I was scared to look up. Suddenly I felt a hand on my upper back, it was warm and I suddenly felt safe. Like I could trust the person that hand belonged to. I slowly looked up and was met with smiling eyes. Shade rubbed my back gently and just smiled at me softly. He didn't have to say anything for me to know that he was telling me it was going to be okay. I was still edgy about him but it felt like we had come to some type of agreement. He stopped and his face become serious as he grabbed my sleeved arm and pulled up the (F/C) sleeve. Cuts lined my wrist from the start all the way up to my elbow and further. His eyes darkened but not from anger, from sadness. I looked away again, I had probably started cutting my 7th grade year in middle school, now that I'm in my second to last year of high school, I was addicted to it. To be honest, my dad didn't know, no one at school knew not even Mike knew, so it felt weird knowing that someone I just met knew my most painful of secrets. I waited for him to yell at me, to call me crazy but he never did. I looked at him and it was like he was stopping himself from doing something as he grabbed the steering wheel and started the car. He pulled out of the empty parking lot and drove silently. I watched him closely, I took in his tall frame and dark blonde hair, and white eyes. I noticed a couple of scars on his neck and a few on his face, they were more like fighting scars then self inflicted. Did he fight a lot? "Why don't you live with your father?" He finally asked.
I yelped loudly at his voice because I was so lost in thought and didn't realize I had been staring at him. "Er...he lives in Japan." Was all I could say.
Shade nodded and looked back out the windshield. Though I could tell he was looked at me from the corner of his eye. We passed house and buildings I'd never seen before and became confused. "Where are we going?."
"My place." He answered quickly.
"Do you always take students to your house?"
"No. But today is different." He mumbled.
I hid a smile behind my hand and looked out the window. He spoke again. "I don't know why, but I feel as if I have to protect you. Make sure your okay. Don't ask me why because I don't know. So please...." He looked at me, his eyes flashing a little with sadness and hope, "let me take care of you. Even if it's only for today."