"Zayn!... Talk to me please" i say
He was silent, he didn't say one word since we left the house. I was scared for him and myself. His mom's boyfriend pissed him off. There was alot running through my mind. Then he finally spoke.
"Jessica... I'm sorry but I thought this could work but it's not a good idea" he said," i don't wanna hurt you."
"What!? Noo you can't say that please...", i cry tears rolled down my face.
"Please stop..", he says
I couldn't believe what i was hearing. My heart stopped. We pulled up to my house. He turned the car off. I was speechless, my eyes were cloudy. My heart was ripped out and smashed. I got out the car and ran inside.
ZAYN'S POV
SHIT! What have I done?
"Hello?", i say
"Darling are you ok ?", it was my mom
"No, i broke her heart mom... She doesn't wanna talk to me", i say
"Sweetie", she says
I don't know what got to me. Maybe the fact that i might've liked her alot and cared about her. I've known her for a long time but this is the first time for us to talk.
"I really screwed up mom.. I didn't want her to judge me for what happened..", i said.
"Come home baby", she said," he's not here."
I hung up.. But i wasn't going home. I wanted to drink.. Drink away my pain. That's what imma do.
JESSICA'S POV
Things were going great till he walked in and ruined everything. That's not fair, zayn was who I wanted. I had him and something happened and now I don't. It was late. I was exhausted, my brain my done and my heart was broken. I took a long hot shower and went downstairs and watched all the seasons of spongebob. It was 3 in the morning, i hear i loud bang at the door. I went to open it, zayn fell on the floor. He was drunk, and his face was bloody.
"Zayn... What the hell?", i say
"Jess.. I'm sorry.. I want you and i was too weak to admit it but i do... I was scared that you would judge me .. " he paused and tears drew from his eyes
"Stop.. Come here.. Let's go get you cleaned..", I said.
He was a drunken mess. Blood dripping from his face and on his shirt.
"You're all cleaned up... You still have clothes in the car?" I asked
" yeah.. ", he said
I ran to his car to grab the bag, and seen blood and puke all over his seats.
" here.. I'll step out", I say.
He took forver just to change clothes. He was finally finished. He came out with shorts and no shirt. He was lovely... Tattoos my heart dropped.. He was so admiring.
"Do i have something on my face?", he asked while laughing.
"Umph.. No.. You're just beautiful..", i say
He came toward me and kissed me. I felt butterflies in my stomach. He pulled me toward him even more. I felt safe with him and he felt safe with me. I was in love.
"You bit my lip!", he says he laughs
"Sorry.. " i say
He laughed. We went downstairs and watched tv. I was in his arms. After a while i fell asleep. I felt safe in his arms.
ZAYN'S POV
She was beautiful while she slept. Im glad i have her. She amazing and i was s jerk before. I don't deserve her but she has a kind heart and loving spirit. She was beautiful im every way. Nothing could stop me from loving her. We woke late that morning
"Morning beautiful", i said
"Morning.. Want breakfast?", she asked
" I'll cook.. You've done enough", i say
JESSICA'S POV
He offered to make breakfast. I found it really attractive when he was cooking shirtless. Its been a dream of mine. He was just so damn finnneeee..
"jessica.. How do you like your eggs?", he asked
"Surprise me !", i say
He turns on music and dances while he cooks. That's so attractive, he turns on my favorite song. I stand behind him and sing and wrapped my arms around him and laid my head on his back. He cut the stove off and turns around picks me up and sits me on the corner.
"Ok... Taste this...", he says
"This is amazing..", i say
He kisses me, but this time it was different. It felt like he was wanted this. It was 30 seconds and he put his tongue in my mouth. He took his hand off the corner and on to my waist. He took my shirt off. He lifted me off the corner and took me to the couch. Did I really wanna do this i thought to myself.
"Wait.. This is my first time...", i say shly..
He gets up. Did i say something stupid. Of course I did. I'm stupid till he says.
"I'm sorry.. If you wanna wait.. I'm ok with that no problem", he says, " let's eat.
I didn't expect that kind of reaction. Usually when I say that. They run out the door. He was special and i love that. I love him and I want him to be my first when the time is right.
