Kiss me when it's dark. [Jerrie] (Perrie Edwards/Jade Thirlwall)

Going nowhere

She walked up to me. My heart hammered in my chest.

"Perr-" but her name didn't even leave my lips until she slapped me. Hard. I felt my right cheek throb, but it was nothing compared to the shock I felt. Leigh-Anne and Jesy had shock written all over their faces, and I guessed my face reflected theirs.

When I finally found my words again I didn't just feel anger. I felt hurt.

I quickly swallowed it down though, and let my anger overshadow it.

"What do you think you're doing?" I asked her. For the first time in my life I was pissed off at her. The usually sweet and loving Jade that loved everything and everyone was long gone and defiantly not recognizable right now.

Perrie looked taken back at my anger. Then she got annoyed at me.

"Can you honestly not get what that was for?"

"No, please enlighten me oh you wise one " I said sarcastically. My face still fuming. HOW DARED SHE BE ANGRY WHEN SHE'S THE ONE THAT SLAPPED ME?

"That's for leaving the band you ass-hat!! I know I said it was fine but we both know it wasn't! I never expected you to run off like that! YOU LEFT US JADE." She cleared her throat. "You promised you would never leave us" her last words we're only a whisper, and I could see the faint trace of tears in her eyes.

Something inside of me wanted to break down and pull her into my arms, but that part of me didn't win this time. As usual.

"Perrie, you know why I did it. You all do. The band wouldn't be better if I had stayed. Why can't you see that??"

I breathed in heavily.

"You left me. You married Zayn, not looking back. I know when I'm not wanted"

Our gazes met. I suddenly remembered I had forgotten Jesy and Leigh we're there the whole time. Witnessing our nasty argument.

My gaze traveled to Leigh's uneasy one, and Jesy's unreadable one.

"Can't you guys just solve this for once and not let your silly little fight intervene with the whole bands future? When we won X factor we promised each other to always stick by each other no matter what, and to always stay friends, because our friendship is too valuable to lose. This is our dream. Why are you wasting it by being too stubborn to tell each other the truth!?"

Both Perrie and I stared at Jesy in shock. I defiantly wasn't prepared for that to come from her, but somehow I knew someone had to say something. This was crazy.

"Look, I know it seems easy to just say sorry and then "forget" it, but it's not that easy and we all know it. I don't see how I can spend every day knowing she's happy with someone else, and me having to constantly watch it. You guys just doesn't know what that does to a person, when it never ends"

Jesy firmly pulled me into a hug.

"Jade, we know this is killing you, but we want you to happy. Please know that. We all do." She said and pointedly looked over at Perrie.

Perrie hadn't said a word in a long time.

She sighed, and gently ran a hand through her blond hair.

"I don't know what to say" she admitted.  "I don't want to lose this band and all the hard work we've done. This is my dream, I wouldn't ever dare give that up. I want this just as much as I did when we won, maybe even more"

She turned around and looked me straight into the eyes.

"I'm still mad at you for leaving"

Translation: I forgive you.

Oh, Perrie.
You're too nice for your own good.