Rising From The Ashes

Chapter 9

Chapter 9

“They died!” I exclaimed and slammed the book I was holding down in front of Sadie, who looked up at me in surprise. “Romeo and Juliet die! I thought you said it was romantic!”

“But it is romantic,” she protested and I raised my eyebrows. “They love each other so much that they don’t want to live without the other. I wish someone loved me that much.”

“I can’t believe this. You compared me and Cameron to this book and they die,” I mumbled and she widened her eyes.

“Oh no, I didn’t mean…well I don’t think….I’m sure everything will work out fine with you and Cameron! No one will die,” she assured me and I shook my head miserably. This whole thing was going to end so terribly, I knew it.

“Besides you and Cameron aren’t even in love anyway, you said so yourself. So, really you guys aren’t as much like them as I thought,” Sadie continued and I frowned.

“Yeah, I guess you’re right,” I mumbled and then started chewing on my lip.

“Oh my gosh! You do, don’t you? You love him!” she exclaimed suddenly, staring at me with wide, excited eyes.

“What? No! I told you it isn’t like that. And besides you and I both know something like that could never work. He has to go back to his side eventually and I’ll never see him again. It would be stupid to even consider it,” I told her and she scowled at me.

“Don’t do this, Kaydance! If you like him then you should go for it. Who cares about what’s going to happen in the future! If you don’t live for right now then you’re going to regret it. I know you and even if you don’t want to admit it to yourself, you like him. So, do something about it,” she insisted.

“I don’t! So, just drop it alright?” I snapped and crossed my arms across my chest. She studied me for a moment before nodding.

“Fine, but if you don’t really like him then can I go for him? It’s not exactly like there are tons of guys around here, more like none, and he’s pretty hot. I’m definitely interested if you’re not,” she decided. I felt my stomach sinking as she said it, but I didn’t really understand why. Cameron was mine and I didn’t want to share him with her, even if I didn’t have any intentions of going after him myself.

“Sadie! Do you want to end up like Lily Fisher? She said that she was in love and look where it got her, prison! Don’t be stupid and get yourself into more trouble than you have to,” I told her and she stuck her chin out stubbornly, which I knew meant that I was going to lose this argument.

“Just because you want to live your life being scared of every little thing doesn’t mean that I have to. I’m sick of feeling trapped in this stupid place with all their rules and regulations about what’s right and wrong! Why don’t I get the right to decide for myself? I want to fall in love. I want to know what it’s like. I don’t care what anyone else would say or think of me for it,” she declared.

I’m left completely speechless. I don’t know what to do or say that would convince her, so I don’t even try. I can see now that what she really wants is to break the rules in any way possible. I don’t think it has anything to do with her actually having feelings for Cameron. She wants to do something to take control of her own life and by falling in love with him then she would. I can understand where she is coming from, I’ve felt the same way plenty of times. I never thought about using Cameron to satisfy my anger at everyone else, though. This is exactly what Sadie wants to do whether she realizes it or not. I can’t say I know much about how the whole love thing works, but I’m pretty sure it’s not something you can just decide the way Sadie wants to.