Amasia dreaded going to college that day. The things Brett said kept coming in her mind. She kept motivating herself, telling herself that she can get through this. This was not the first time that this was happening to her. Another best friend of hers had told her that he had feelings for her and he ended up leaving her when she said she didn't feel the same way. She knew it was going to hurt more if Brett did this. Brett meant so much more to her but she would not tell him to stay if he wanted to leave. She always felt that if she had to request people to stay in her life, they may stay for a short while, but they will still leave. She had already started planning how she was going to spend her free lectures, now that Brett was leaving her. Apart from Brett, over thinking was her best friend.
Brett didn't sleep that well last night. The thought of Amasia rejecting her came to his mind again and again. He slept around four in the morning, when even his brain was tired of running that same track over and over again. He brushed his teeth and wondered if Amasia will ever fall for him. The notion that it might never happen, churned his stomach. He pushed aside that thought as he was already getting late and he had to face her in a few minutes. He thought of some jokes he could crack to break the tension. He didn't want to lose her; he didn't mind being her friend for the rest of his life, if it meant they could be together.
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"Hey", Amasia smiled as Brett walked up to their bus stop. He replied with a nod and they both started looking at the far end of the road to ignore eye contact and pretended to look for the bus.
"Why does the bus driver always take so much time?" Said Amasia, hoping that would break the awkward silence. He shrugged his shoulders and the awkwardness continued.
Amasia hated small talk. She was always bad at it and she would always find ways to get out of these kinds of situations. Maybe I should just get committed with him. Maybe then he won't leave, she thought to herself. Stop being so desperate Amasia. Be strong. If he leaves, he leaves. Don't let it get to you. It will not be the end of the world.
"You look pretty", he said politely. He said that every day and she would be smiling from ear to ear replying with thanks or other sarcastic comments she could think of. But today, his compliment felt different.
"Thanks", she said forcing a smile.
"Do you have any free lectures today or any that you would like to bunk?" Asked Brett. If she says no, I'll be sure that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, he contemplated. Before she could answer, the bus arrived. They always had a fixed two seater seat. It was their way of telling others that they didn't want to be disturbed. They both sat down and the conversation continued.
"No, actually I have my database management class today. Also, my attendance is very low. Mr. Hyde was pointing out that I have to attend more classes otherwise he'll detain me", she said over explaining herself.
She knew Brett very well. She knew that he was going to think that she was making an excuse which was partly true. Mr. Hyde had warned her about detaining her but she was kind of relieved that she won't have to deal with another awkward encounter.
Brett's heart sank even lower. She said no. He tried to put on a brave face and he thought he did it perfectly but she was familiar with his eyes. His eyes were never able to lie, at least not to her.
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Somehow, they reached college with awkwardness between them that now seemed familiar. They said their goodbyes and headed to their classes.
Both being a little relieved that now the awkwardness is gone but hating the fact that it may never be the same again.
Maybe she is better off without me. She is so amazing and I ruined it. I drove her away; he scolded himself while walking towards his class. She deserves the best, she IS the best. Anyone would be lucky to have her. I can't believe all the jerks that let her go. I would never let her go. I can't believe I ruined something that was so beautiful for me. I'll meet Liam today and tell him that she doesn't feel the same. Maybe he'll know what to do. His thoughts vanished as he reached his class. He had to pretend to be happy again.
"Something is definitely bothering you" said Ryan observing Brett. "Did you have a fight with your girlfriend?" Ryan was another guy in Brett's class who thought there was something going on between Amasia and Brett.
"Amasia is not my girlfriend, Ryan!" Snapped Brett.
"Well, something is definitely wrong in your fairy land. Come on, spill it" said Ryan trying to convince Brett to tell what was wrong.
"I told Amasia that I liked her but she doesn't like me back" mumbled Brett miserably.
"Oh man! That's rough. What are you going to do now?" Questioned Ryan while the teacher in their class taught something about beams and structures.
"What can I do? Everything is so weird now. She is not talking properly and I don't know how to. I don't think she wants to be my friend anymore"
"Alright. First of all, stop being such a girl. Man up and talk to her about it. Ask her if she wants to be friends anymore or not."
"What if she says she doesn't want to?"
"Then nothing. You can't do anything about it then Brett."
That's what he feared. Not being able to do anything about it. The teacher being aware of the fact that nobody listened to him in the past hour, began taking attendance as the lecture ended.
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Amasia took a look around in her class and wondered with whom she would spend her free time, now that her friend is gone. Nobody seemed as good as him. Nobody seemed to have the energy or the time to tolerate her quirks the way he did. She didn't have many friends. It didn't bother her that she didn't because she had always been an introvert. She never liked big groups or big parties. I should talk to him about it. Maybe I could tell him that I'm not looking for a relationship. Oh god. Why did he have to say that? Everything was going so well. He can leave if he wants to, but first i'll yell at him for being so childish. Just because I don't like him doesn't mean that he can just leave me like that. I don't owe him anything. Her temper started to build up wondering all these things when she realised she's over thinking again. Geez, I need to calm down. He never said that he wanted to leave. I should really talk to him otherwise the nerves in my brain will pop.
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Short StoryBrett and Amasia were best friends. They told each other everything. Amasia is taken a back when she finds out that Brett has feelings for her. Amasia didn't feel the way Brett felt. Will Brett find true love? Liam being Brett's friend is forbidden...
