My Mates

Chap 8

What have I done to get into this mind blogging situation. It's not even funny I lost my husband according to Ann.
Now I know why I was so unsure to leave him. I should feel some remorse I left him there but Anna says it's not safe to be there again they too are hiding I don't know from what and I didn't care to question I don't want to go there I just wanted to see him if he's still there.

What was it like. Oh god help me. I'm screaming in my head. I'm all sweaty. I feel like something inside me is stirring and wants out.

I want to know more and at the same time I don't.
Husband! Really? Why can't I remember things. I'm gonna have an emotional breakdown. I want to cry, I want to scream, I want to pull my scalp out.
It's frustrating when you don't know things that too about your own self.

May be I should just take a nap, again! Anna said the condition or situation I'm in its normal wanting to sleep. But why me. Why am I in this mess. I grab me face and rub at it furiously.

You are destined to have this. There's no going back. You have to be strong. And let me tell you, you are strong already that's the only reason you've been chosen for this. I'm always here with you.

That's the most she spoke, you know the voice in my head. I've to ask Anna about this. Her words comforts me. And I relax. Whatever it is I'll ask later. I'm shutting down for a while.

There's no one here just him and me and he's smiling that million dollar smile any girl around would drop her panties for. And he's mine all mine forever.
He's walking towards me with a look that has me fidgeting, it's our anniversary we've been together for as long as I remember we were neighbors then best friends then girlfriend and boyfriend then Mr. & Mrs. I love this man. He's always so darn calm and collected. I'm lucky he chose me. But he had no other choice I was his mate. His happy ending his forever. And he's mine.
As he reached me he has opened up his arms wide so that I could run into them and feel like heaven. As I start walking towards him Just a inch apart I see his eyes going dull arms falling at his side knees wobbling as I finally reach him I sit beside him. I feel numb and he's too cold, dead, lifeless.
I think I'm screaming but I can't hear anything, nothing.
As I close my eyes to cry and open them it's pitch black. I'm naked everything around me is broken demolished. I don't remember anything. I stand, it feels like its happening all over again. I see people far from where I'm standing. Tearing other people with their teeth. Their eyes pitch black with red dancing colors in them mouth covered in blood. They are smiling that evil smile. My heart stops thinking they are coming for me, they do, they are walking towards me, in a blur they are in front of me, but they don't do anything they are looking down at the dead bodies and past me as if they can't see me. But I'm still scared until they choose to disappear. I let out a sagged breath. I'm alive. But I feel like I've lost my everything. I feel empty to the core. I don't understand why I'm feeling like this....

I wake up, knowing it was just a dream. A nightmare at that. It felt so real. Dreams are meant to feel real. Silly. I saw that man again and if I remember I'm in love with him, that's what I saw and felt during the vision I was having. I don't feel it now. I'm sure Anna won't lie. She saved my life and she says I'm a very important person. I feel like I'm very familiar with all of this stuff. Yet I feel detached.

Just ask away. You're close to knowing everything. I believe in you.

Yeah first of all this voice. I'm gonna go find Anna. With that I stand and start walking to find her. I guess the voice is right I'm close I can feel it.
Every nerve I feel is vibrating in me. It's like having life back and feeling alive.