The Bad Boy's Nerd

6. Moms & Boys

(WARNING! This chapter has some suicidal content)

*Amiya's POV*

I get up the next day and put on my joggers and a black shirt. I walk down stairs into the kitchen and grab an apple and leave.

I don't really want to go to school since I'll have to see Jake there but I have to be strong.

I see Sofia down the street and decide to catch up to her. I need to tell her what happened.

"Amiya I'm so sorry. He's an ass and you didn't deserve that but don't you think your overreacting?"

"Well I asked him if he had feelings for Anita and he...he didn't answer which means that he could or couldn't. Wow I'm such a bitch."

"No your not you just didn't know and you just thought he did so it's really not your fault."

"I'll just talk to him later then."

We get there 5 minutes later and I go to my locker. I feel someone tap my shoulder and I turn around to see Anita and her crew behind her.

"What do you want Anita?"

"I just want to say sorry for acting like a bitch the other day."

"Oh it's fine. I really need to talk to Jake , so I can talk to you later."

She whispers to her friends still saying that I stole her boyfriend. I roll my eyes and scoff.

I walk away and I look around for Jake. I soon find him in the garden at our school. He was sitting there thinking until he saw me walk up to him.

"Jake I need to talk to you about yesterday. I just want to apologize.."

"You don't need to its my fault for saying Anita and I didn't mean to. I don't have feelings for her at all but I have feelings for someone else."

My eyes pop open and I'm instantly irritated. "What? Jake I can't.."

"I have feelings for you and you only Amiya and since Valentine's Day is coming up I wanted to ask if you wanted to be my Valentine." Now he's the one interrupting people.

"Of course Jake." I hug him and then grab his hand. We walk down the empty hallways together and find our classes.

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When I was walking home with Sophia, we had talked about what happened with Jake.

"First, that is so cute. Second, if he messes up or hurts you, let me know and I'll beat him with a butter sock. (iCarly reference)

I laugh at her and get to my house where I see my mom's car. That's when it clicks in my head.

Jake's stuff was still there and his clothes.

My mom was going to kill me.

I walk slowly to the door, trying to figure out what to tell her. Once I open the door, she's sitting in the table, looking at the door.

"Hey Mom. How was your ..." She interrupts me and walks up to me. With Jake's stuff.

"Is this Jake's stuff? Why was it in your room and why is his clothes here?

I stand there looking at the floor. I play with my fingers nervously and try not to have an anxiety attack.

"Amiya Marie Lewis, answer my questions or I swear I will bring him to this house and embarrass the both of you."

"Mom, it's not what it looks like." Really, Amiya? That's what you say?

"Oh, really? So, it doesn't look like he came here and had some kind of sexual interaction with you. Amiya, I swear.."

I give up.

"Okay fine. Yes, he came over and we had sex. We spent a whole school day at home and had sex. Then he got me food from the store, and then called me another girl's named and I overreacted. We got in this big fight and we made up today. That's all that happened."

I let out a breath and it was quiet. She looks at me, walks away, and goes upstairs.

I try to catch up to her but she locked her door.

At this point, I don't know what to do. She's probably so disappointed at me. I go to my room and walk towards my bathroom.

I take out two blades and use them on my arm. I put two long cuts for being a disappointment and a horrible person.

I wash the blades and put them back in the counter. I walk to my bed and cry for the rest of the night.

What have I done?
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I'm really bad at updating in books. I'm so sorry. In return, I have another book that I will try to update every week as well as this one. It's called Loving the Player.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter though.

-Raven

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