Baby Girl

Chapter thirteen

Ethans P.O.V

There she was. Looking more magnificent than ever, her eyes shining through the moonlight. I shut my eyes quickly thinking this was a dream id wake from any second. I gripped to the beer bottle i had in my hands.

A mix of emotions flooded into me when i realized she was there. This wasn't a dream. The girl that shattered my heart then left me with no regret was there, right in front of me, inches away.

"Ethan?" She spoke. If you weren't paying close attention you wouldn't be able to hear her.

"It really is you."  Her eyes shined with happiness for a mere second. As if she was excited to see me. Then they turned stormy grey as she looked down.

"Maggie..."

"Ethan, i miss you."

I had been waiting for those exact words for months. I wanted to hold her and tell her i loved her. I wanted to kiss her. But instead i laughed.

"Are you fucking kidding me? Its been a month Maggie. A fucking month. And in case you've forgotten you were the one who wanted to end things. Not me. I was crazy for you. But. You- you cut me off and left me without any hesitation." My voice began to get louder. I was screaming in fact.

Her eyes began to get teary. Then her expression hardened, i swear her gaze could burn a hole in my heart.

"You were the reason i gave us up. Don't try to pin this on me. Its your fault Ethan. But its also mine, cause id take you back in a heartbeat if i could. And thats the fucking problem. Thats whats keeping me from moving on."

Her voice began cracking at the end. And as each tear drop fell i felt worse. I shot a look at her, wanting to have eye contact while i said this.

"I was never the problem. You looked at me and pitied me. I stopped loving you after a while. I remember feeling numb for you after i got on that plane"

Thats when her expression changed. And her look hit me harder than ever. I couldn't describe it. A mix of anger , sadness, shock, and a hint of desperation.

"So tell me. How many people have their ideas of love messed up because of you?"

I shrugged trying my best to make her think i didnt give two fucks about this conversation.

She smirked. "So you've lost count of all the people you've ever hurt." She stepped closer to me. "Does it even bother you the tiniest bit that so many girls have sat on their bathroom floor crying their eyes out because you told them you loved them and then left? Does it even bother you that they think they may never find anyone again? Does it bother you that their ideas of love, and the expectations of happiness are so corrupted that they will never open themselves up again? Does that give you some sort of satisfaction? That their first love turned out to be the person who would hurt them the most?
She had left me speechless, to be quite frank, i had never thought of any of these girls feelings.
"Does that make you feel a sense of sick, twisted pride? That you were their first love and you destroyed them?"

She finished, and stayed quite for second. As did I.

"Lie to me again Ethan." She whispered sending shivers down my spine.

"I love you."

She shot me a look that for my life i could not explain the feeling she gave me with it.

And i swear as soon as those words came out i couldn't bear it. I really was going in fucking sane.

Maggies P.O.V

Everything stopped for a second as those cruel words left his mouth. I pushed him out of the way and left. I got in Isabellas car and turned it on. She had given me the keys because she always lost them. I stepped down on the accelerator with all my might as i drove off.

After some time i found myself in a huge forest. Surrounded me were towering trees. And the smell of flowers.

"Maggie." I heard a deep voice with panting breaths.

I turned around and could barely make out Graysons face in the darkness. 

I look at him with a blank expression. He knew what was happening. He knew i wasn't okay. He knew.

His strong arms gripped on to me as i buried my face to his t-shirt that smelled like strong cologne. I cried , i did. Cause i break easily. And as much as i hate to say it and admit it, I'm weak, especially for Ethan.

Graysons P.O.V

"I hate him Grayson. I hate him so much."  Her  teeth clenched together as she tried to swallow her sobs.

"I hate him." She promises, she shaking so violently she has to steady herself.

"I hate him." She repeats. Once, twice, three times. She slowly lifts herself from my shoulder and i let her go. And i could see, she did not hate him. Even at her most deadliest hour. I pulled her close for another hug, for i did not know what to do nor how to react.

After a while of silence I let go. And we sat there on the cold ground looking at the stars.

"God i miss him. Ive missed him all along." She speaks, i began to think of her as a hypocrite because of this, or she might be speaking her mind for once.

"I know its kind of stupid because he's sure not missing me with that girl with the big blue eyes and long brown hair." She scoffs. I stay silent. Taking this in.

"I guess you have to love them while you can , don't you? You have to cherish every kiss like its your last, hold onto him like you'll never see him again, and sear those godam hazel eyes into your memory."

"Because thats the thing about love. Just when you think its never gonna end, it does."

There was a minute of silence and i began to talk. I couldn't stay quite forever.

"Ethan loved you. Adored you actually. You were all he ever talked about." I answered. I could tell at the sound of his name she reacted quickly.

"Then why would he break my heart?" Trying her best to sound calm, didnt work.

"He loved you." I pause too swallow.

"He just wasn't ready for it too hit him that hard."