Delete | Kim Taehyung

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A/N: I cringed writing this :'c why do i write angst stuff

August 15, 2016

Third Person's POV

Miyun bit her lip nervously because she knew that Taehyung will come to the venue she told him about yesterday. He came with the question that she didn't prepare for even if she needed to. It was all about the stupid reason she didn't want to talk about.

The reason why she confuses Taehyung and the reason why she confuses herself as well.

Miyun couldn't find words to say when he asked her for the second time, "Why did you reject me, Miyun?". She opened her mouth to answer— to at least try saying something but her hands started to tremble and her tears threatened to fall.

"I'm sorry, I just—" She started but slowly stopped herself midway and let out a nervous chuckle. She then shrugged, turning to him with a smile full of pain. "I don't know what to start off with." She truthfully said.

Taehyung tilted his head to look at her expression, mirroring the frown on her face. It's contagious.

"Jang Eunmi is a close friend of mine. Remember her? Remember that girl that you talked about that made you feel something special towards her and you can't explain it, that girl who almost became your girlfriend, the girl who I was so jealous of because you get to have these feelings towards her.. she's my friend." Miyun started explaining, leaning forwards on the bridge to look at the clear river below them.

Taehyung listened carefully. In each and every word of what Miyun's says, his eyes were all glued on her.

"You're too childish, Miyun, Eunmi told me. She told me that I act like a child who tries to get attention from people trying to interfere with their problems just to plant herself in people's minds so that they'll get attached to her." Miyun continued, her voice dropping its normal tone.

"I couldn't speak when she said that. I couldn't object and just nodded. Why the hell is that? Is it because it's true? Is this all because I wanted to get your attention when you don't even want me to get it? It screws up my goddamn mind." Miyun tried to laugh again.

Miyun tried to remove the mirrored sad expression on Taehyung's face so she punched his shoulder playfully, "Getting too serious there mister, hahaha." She even tried to joke but failed miserably. Taehyung stood still, and it made her sadder.

Her eyes diverted to the river and heaved a devastating sigh.

"Going back.. I couldn't agree more what she said after that. She told me that I shouldn't get into a troubled guy's life if I'll act like I know what's going on when I don't even have a clue... She's right.. Taehyung, I'm too immature." Miyun's tone slowly fades into a sad mutter.

Taehyung was about to contradict until Miyun pressed a finger against her lips, "Please Taehyung, let me talk first.."

Miyun just continued explaining, and explaining.

"Eunmi is independent, nice, honest and most of all, she acts our age— or even older. I knew I could look up to those words she said because she's Eunmi after all and everyone likes her. Though I wondered why she wasn't there for you instead of me."

"Because in my case? I'm probably an abundance of nothingness. Everyone makes me anxious, every single time. I'm just this weirdo who's really impenetrable and just loves to annoy people." Miyun said, trying to compose herself and not cry.

"Also.. I told you about those people who hated me right? They told me I'm not good enough for anybody, but I believed the opposite before. I told you no one's too good nor too bad for anyone. Because that's what my mom made me believe." She bit her lip and fanned her now watery eyes before the tears fall.

"But what Eunmi said hit me so freaking hard. I'm starting to think that maybe she's right and I'm really wrong. I'm not good for anybody, I'm probably just a someone who has a very little knowledge of life and is spoiled with the happy sides of it. See? You deserve better, Taehyung." She turned her head to him.

Taehyung wasn't able to speak and just studied her expression.

"That someone? It's someone who can understand you better, someone who knows more. Every time you reminded me of what you feel towards me, I felt thankful but I couldn't accept those feelings. I'm just not one of those kinds of people." Miyun continued again.

Taehyung shook his head and began to speak. He couldn't believe every single word she just said. To him, Miyun is very special.

"What.. are you saying? What are you telling me? Why are you being selfish right now? Did Eunmi brainwash y—"

"It's fine." Miyun cut Taehyung off, "It's not brainwashing if the truth's being fed to me."

"Miyun, I love you. I don't need anyone else." Taehyung contradicted.

"Same here. Still, I need to grow up. And you shouldn't be putting up with someone like me. Let's just stop texting each other, talking if possible. Talking to each other is just a distraction." Miyun decided, quickly wiping the tears that were blocking her vision.

Taehyung's heart dropped.

"No one I've met ever made me feel the way you do right now." He started. "You can't be doing this." He said in disbelief.

"It's alright, Taehyung. I'm sorry for this, okay? Thank you for being my friend. You need to go home now alright, it's late at night." Miyun said, then left Taehyung in the scene.

Everything didn't seem real to him.

Taehyung, heartbroken and devastated, looked down the river in front of him.

The first girl whom he admired the most is the first girl to ever shatter him to pieces.

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A/N: ISTG A THIRTEEN YEAR OLD (ME BASICALLY) SHOULDN'T BE WRITING THIS SHIT ;n;

apologies for tHIS CRAP :(