When I wake from the nightmares. Who do I think of. Who do I want holding me in their arms. I want that person to hug me as I gasp for breath since I woke up screaming. I want them to untangle me from the blankets I had envisioned as clawed hands reaching out for me. It's simple I want the one person I knew had loved me. I want the one person who won't come back to me. Did you think of me as you hung that rope from the ceiling. Did you think of me and our bitter sweet kisses as you kicked the chair out from underneath you. I hope you did but at the same time I don't it's to confusing. Am I supposed to forgive you for leaving me like this or am I supposed to hold on to an anger I can't create. The problem is I love you and I still do.✒️
