The AlDub Playlist (AlDub/MaiDen One Shot Collection)

Forevermore

Mood
David Archuleta's
Forevermore

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People leaves us for some reason. People we love might not stay on our side forever. Iiwan at iiwan din nila tayo. Pero maraming factors o dahilan kung bakit nila tayo iiwan. While leaving is a sure thing, it doesn't mean na hindi na tayo mahalaga sa kanila. They're being reasonable kung iiwan nila tayo. Maaaring nahihirapan na sila o napapagod na sila but whatever the reason may be, wala tayong magagawa. Kaya habang nandiyan pa sila sa tabi natin, pahalagahan natin sila. Ingatan. Mahalin. Dahil hindi natin alam kung kailan nila tayo iiwan. Kung kailan sila aalis. Kung kailan nila mararamdaman yung oras na kailangan na nilang bumitaw.

Totoo, walang forever. Walang forever na mananatili yung taong mahal mo sa tabi mo.

Aalis sila. Maiiwan ka.

Pero, hindi mo kailangang malungkot. Dahil ang paglisan ay hindi katapusan.

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I miss her so much. It's been 7 year since she passed away. Pero hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako makapag-move on. Naiisip ko pa din siya. Yung mga ngiti niya. Yung mga wacky faces niya. I can hear in the back of my head her laugh. Her voice when she's calling my name. And it made me fall in love over and over again.

But she's not here by my side. She's gone. But one thing is for sure, she will always be in my heart... Forevermore...

"Alden..." Maine called. She's been suffering to leaukemia since we're college. Bilang sobrang sneaky niya, hindi niya agad sinabi sa'kin. I was angry that time. Kung kailan nawawalan na siya ng pag-asang gumaling saka niya lang sinabi sa'kin.

"Oh babe, may masakit ba?" Tanong ko habang hawak yung pisngi niyang namumutla.

Naaawa ako sa kalagayan niya. Yung ulo niya balot ng balabal kasi nalalagas na yung buhok niya. Namumutla na din siya. Her soft and subtle lips before were now cracked due to the disease. If I could take her sufferings away, gagawin ko dahil ayoko siyang nahihirapan. Dahil nasasaktan ako pag nasasaktan siya.

"Wala naman." Sagot niya. "Sorry huh, iiwan na kita ng medyo mas maaga sa inaasahan. Sorry talaga..."

"Ano ka ba? Gagaling ka pa kaya. Magpapakasal pa tayo ohh. Magkakaanak pa tayo. Gagawa pa tayo ng sarili nating pamilya. Magiging masaya tayo, Maine. Gagaling ka pa..." I can't help myself from crying saying those words. I hate to say na wala ng pag-asang mabuhay yung taong mahal ko. It's hard to accept that she will be leaving soon.

"Alden, sorry..." She said and she started crying.

"Shhh... Don't cry. Remember, happy lang?" I hissed while kissing her temples.

She nodded and I held her hand tighter.

We were sitting in front of a romantic beach sa Quezon. Mas pinili ni Maine na dito na magbakasyon. Mas gusto niya sa isang peaceful na lugar. Yung hindi maingay. Kaya andito kami.

We sat is a comfortable silence where I'm just holding her hands. Only God knows how I will miss this woman beside me.

"Babe..." I called her.

"Hmm?"

"Will you marry me?" I asked and pulling the ring in my pocket.

Nagtaka ako kasi ngumiti lang siya.

"I'm gonna say no, not because I don't like you, but because I don't want you to feel too attached to me. Around this week maaaring mawala na ako. Ayokong masaktan ka ng sobra pag nawala na ako. Ayokong makita kang nasasaktan dahil sa'kin. I want you to find another girl who can make you happy more than I can. I'm not giving up on you... It's just... Alden please, don't make this thing difficult for me. Ayokong may maiwan ako..." She said while crying. And guess what, naiiyak na din ako. Hindi dahil she said no but because I know she can say yes but something's pulling her from saying yes. Kinda frustrating but ayoko na din siyang mahirapan.

"Yeah. Sorry..." I said.

"No need for a sorry. I wanna marry you and you know that. It's just I'll be gone soon and mas masasaktan ka lang." She said.

I nodded in agreement. May point naman siya pero alam mo yun, iba pa rin kasi kung o-oo siya.

"Alden. Salamat sa mga natitirang panahon ko na sinamahan mo ako. Salamat sa lahat ng pagmamahal na binigay mo. Kasi kahit sandali lang tayong nagkasama naging masaya ako. Kung mabubuhay pa ulit ako, pipiliin kong makasama ka. I love you, Alden..." She said and she kissed my cheeks. I felt a wave of excitement and sadness in my body. I know she will be gone soon so I'm taking every second that we're together. I want to make the best out of it. "Be happy for me okay? Find a girl. I know andiyan lang siya."

"Wala na akong ibang mamahalin kundi ikaw lang, Maine. You are my forever." I said and I kissed her lips.

This might be the last kiss that we'll share and I want this to be special.

As our lips moved in sync, sounds of wave crashing down the shore hit my ears. It's calming my nerves. And by just the thought of her it made me feel safe.

I don't know what this girl is doing to me but I'm crazy for her.

And I don't want her to leave.

But soon she will.

And it made me sad.

If I just had the power to take all you pain away...

"I love you Maine... I love you, forever."

"I love you too, Alden. I will miss you." She said smiling. Alam kong natanggap na niya na iiwan niya na ako pero ako di ko matanggap... Ang hirap.

We're just sitting by the shore. Listening to sound of crashing wave and birds chirping. I know I'm spending my last hours with her.

"Alden, iidlip lang ako huh, medyo inaantok ako." She said.

"Yeah, take a rest."

And she closed her eyes and her breathing starts to become slower and slower.

I saw her lips mutter 'I love you' before she stopped breathing.

And that's the most heartbreaking moment of my life. And it's an understatement of the century.

And I cried and cried the whole time. I sat with her for an hour muttering 'I love you's' to her while holding her lifeless body next to mine.

At least she's now at peace.

And that's the thing I want for her. Peace.

I hope she's happy where she is right now.

I love you, Maine. See you soon, my forever...

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So ganito ang nangyari, na-LSS na naman ako sa Forevermore, tapos tinayp ko to, hindi ko natapos kasi papasok na ako. So nung nasa FX na ako papuntang MRT Q. Ave, along FCM, biglang tumugtog ang Forevermore so ayun, roll ulit. Type. Type. Type. On repeat ang music. Type. Type. Look up. Type. Look up. Tapos nung tinatayp ko na yung 'And that's the most heartbreaking moment of my life', naiyak na ako. Nasa FX po ako niyan mga kaibigan. Pinagtinginan tuloy ako. Kahiya. Pero wow. Seryoso, I never been cried before sa sinulat ko. Iba ang impact pag may cancer na involved be. Iba talaga.

Oh siya, vote huh, wag kalimutan. Salamat mga be.

'Till next update! Muah!