Richard read this.

Chapter2

There are times when I get suddenly tired and depressed even though i'm doing something that should be happy and cheerful... Like listening to good music with my friends... I suddenly feel like i'm watching what's going on from outside of a bubble... And no matter what I do I can't make it better... Or I say something stupid and feel stupid for it and then it's like no one wants to talk to me... I've tried to fix it on my own but so far all i've gotten is more depression... I fear that my relationship with him is partly to blame... That I should fix whatever i've done wrong. maybe i'm feeling this bad because i've done something and I don't know what or how to fix it...