He eyed me from across the room biting his bottom lip softly .
i closed my eyes and crossed my legs as his soft voice proudly said
"I Aint tryna fuck i just wanna make love....I wanna feel the difference between passion and i wanna feel the chills i wanna feel the connection i wanna feel the flow instead of just the rush instead of just the nut i wanna explore the sensations of being inside of you."
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what happened in that room can never happen again . my heart raced as i cleaned my self up in the bathroom. Flashbacks flashed through my mind as pain thumped across my forehead . Rough pushes against the wall the sucking of the wetness placed on his fingers . I stood at the sink with temptation but fright targeting my thoughts . I lost all my sanity he had me weak mentally and physically .
My walls
my guards
my protecters
was replace with soft moans and soft grunts . The way his tongue licked his lips and swirled around his tongue . The first time I say him smile " you taste good ma" his voice sent chills now my spine . Since when was his voice this deep .
I got my self together and walked out the office like nothing ain't never happen . I got in my car and drove home trying to recollect my sanity before I lose my damn mind . I bit my lip while speeding on the expressway home . Damn I feel so dirty . I mean it's not like I told him to sit down but I ended up getting pinned against the wall. I haven't felt this kinda heat since college and even then it doesn't seem like anyone could've turned me on in 2.3 seconds like he did . Maybe I'm over thinking things but it's like this boy ..... it's like he's emotionless but that moment he pushed me against the wall I was just like damn daddy . I could see the passion in his eyes ... I could feel it against my thigh but one think that frightened me was when he knew that was a weakness .
When he said " you've been being stingy I knew you haven't had it in a long time " I froze . Its like .... he knew everything . That's when I tried to escape but it wasn't no escaping now .... I was all his .
I sat with my lush bomb in the water as rebecca placed a hot oil treatment in my hair
" girl why is your hair so damn curly it won't let me .... ugh "
" ow goddammit that shit hurt "
"I'm sorry ok " she said while yanking my hair apart
" I rolled my eyes and relaxed in my lush bath "
" baby I have to go in a hour .... I have a session tonight "
" awl shit it is.... I said before sitting up "
"You okay ? You seem tense lately " Rebecca said while getting up
I raised an eyebrow " no I'm fine but I'm so proud of you ... getting you a job and a session ... you are doing better ."
" are you tara?" She said before walking out
"AYE WHATTT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN "
"I HAVE TO GET READY !"
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" I think that sex is better than making love " said a blonde headed girl across the room
Nesto rolled his eyes and mumbled "typical white bitch .....I DISAGREE"
" What are you saying then mr.powe" said the therapist
"I ain't tryna fuck I'm trying to make love . You wanna know why ?" He raised an eyebrow .
i closed my eyes and crossed my legs as his soft voice proudly said
"I Aint tryna fuck i just wanna make love....I wanna feel the difference between passion and i wanna feel the chills i wanna feel the connection i wanna feel the flow instead of just the rush instead of just the nut i wanna explore the sensations of being inside of you."
I accidently nodded my head and satisfaction until I opened my eyes and we automatically locked eyes . Its like he was talking about me . I brushed that shit off and looked away .
"I wanna make love with love I wanna feel the connection instead of the rush maybe if I have to take it slow I will I just wanna feel that way . Maybe someone has to help me and maybe we can teach each other how to love . Maybe it's just mean but I think as a grown man and all the h- excuse me ... all the women I've been with I can say that I'm ready to be with something real something that can handle . Something that's a challenge not necessarily at sex but mentally and physically . Someone I crave to be around not for sex for everything . Hopefully what I call my self future become a present and hopefully it will become more then just want I hope it will be hopefully it will become the empire that I desire . But if not ....... maybe I'll have to try again cause the hunger of a person's mind ..." he said while looking in my eyes
" it will make you want them in each and every way "
