Seventeen Ships & Smuts

H O Z I

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Woozi POV
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I stood there watching from behind the stage. I watched Hoshi and his solo of starry night (I think that's it I'm sorry if I'm wrong)

The way he held the girl's jaw and threw it back and forth. She was all tied up on stage, facing him.

I couldn't stand it anymore, I walked away from where I could view the horrible performance that I was forced to watch.

I've tried to hard since the day I met him to get him to notice me.

It was like he was a drug. When he was around I was so happy and full of life. But when he's gone in sober and the world rushed back into my head.

I can barely talk to him right. When I finally got the courage to ask him if we could practice together I bought a new outfit so he would be impressed. I trained and trained I even tried a new hair style.

He didn't even show up.

Y'know what that's like? To feel so empty and the one person who makes it all go away also seems to make it 100 times worse?

I asked another time
Didn't show up
Another time
Didn't show up
And asked a fourth time and he didn't even tell we why he couldn't come

The last time I asked was the worst. This time he showed up but it wasn't worth it. When I got there he had a girl with him. Flirting and he even pushed her hair out of the way and kissed her.

I broke out into tears and ran out of the building as fast as I could. I swear it was the same girl that he was dancing with right now.

I couldn't help but sob uncontrollably. Just remembering her and how she was with him now. People might say I'm only acting like this because someone finally got more attention from Hoshi than me. FINALLY? EVERYONE GETS MORE ATTENTION FROM HIM THAN ME.

The worst part he doesn't even try to ignore me. He just generally doesn't give a crap about me.

I felt so alone. I looked over to see if the performance was done. That girl, she freaking looked right at me. And shrugged with a smirk.

Tears fell even harder than before. I guess Hoshi could hear them because looked over and his face dropped when he saw mine. I flicked him off and ran away.

Why couldn't he just get out of my life and stay out?!

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Hoshi POV
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I don't get it at all. Why were there year stains all over Woozi's face. Why was he crying like someone was murdered??

Was this her fault? Was this Minji's fault? Minho is this girl...I'm standing front of. Using her for a performance.

I've known Minji only half the time I've know Woozi and I care about her about 1 of the million That I care for Jihoon.

I can't say the same thing about her to me. She cares about me in a...displeasing way...

But she hates Woozi so much because how how much I care about him. She brain washes me telling me that I should ignore him to better get his attention. But he doesn't even try to get my attention anymore.

Ignoring wasn't a good idea....why do I even try? Try hard but it always seems to hurt him. God Jihoon in sorry!! I didn't mean to...

Why do I even....

Finally it was over with and I rush off stage.

"Hossshi  you were so good. We should celebrate." Minji said behind me pushing herself against my back.

"Get off Minji!" I yelled and pushed her off me.

"Did it work dumby? Did you get him jealous??? I think I even saw him cry?" She laughed and tangled her fingers in my hair.

"THATS NOT THE KIND OF REACTION I WANTED!!" I screamed at her.

She jumped away from me and my loud voice and angry tone. She ran away from me, finally thank god.

I looked around everywhere for Woozi only to find him hiding in one of the less occupied rooms.

"J-Jihoon??" I said with my voice shaking at the sight of him sobbing because of me.

He looked up and my heart broke at his puffy eyes and trembling lip. "G-GO AWAY SOONYOUNG!!" He cried out and shut the door behind me.

"J-Jihoon please just listen I never-"

"WHY DONT YOU GO AND ASK YOUR STUPID NEW GIRLFRIEND?!"

God he has a temper but then again with what I did who's to blame him?

"I wanted to make you jealous but it only made you cry and I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself because of it. Jihoon please I love you. I-I adore you!"

He stopped and laughed his sweet laugh. "That's too cheesy, I mean-SHUT UP OKAY?"

"B-but I love you...I do..." I started crying like a waterfall slipped from my eyes.

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Part two will come up soon