Black Song (Tokio Hotel fan fiction)

1. Violent Youth

Bill's POV

„Stop crying!” I yell at her again today “Just stop these damn tears! I’m sick of it!”

“I hate you Bill Kaulitz! You made a hell out of my life! You destroyed everything!”

“What? Are you crazy? How can you say this? Even think like this!”

“Because it’s true! You never loved me! You are twisted freak! Stupid freak! I don’t know why I didn’t believe everyone when they told me to stay away from you because you are not normal! I was so fucking stupid!”

Her words cause a sharp pain in my heart. She knows it. She knows what hurts me, what I hate the most.

“I’m not a freak! I’m not!” I scream as I come close to her “I’m not a fucking freak!”

She only laugh is my face. There are no tears in her eyes now. She gets her control again and I hate it because I know how strong she is.

“Yes you are. You’ve always have been. Freak. Faggot.”

“Shut up!” I warn her “Shut up or I’ll…”

“You will what idiot? Tell me. You will hit me? Yell at me more? Call me various names?” she laughs again “No you can’t. You know why? Because you are weak and stupid. Too stupid to even defend yourself!”

I pant heavily and I’m really on the edge. I feel like I could kill her now. Make her suffer but she is winning again. She knows me too well. She knows everything about me because I let her know me. I trusted her and she used it. She manipulated me and played with me and now she want to blame me for everything.

“Stop this!” I finally scream because it’s enough.

“Stop? Oh no. It’s only the beginning! A useless crap like you won’t set the rules here.”

“We are over!” I almost split on hr face as we stand so close to each other.

“You think I could spend at least one more day with you? How stupid you are Bill?”

“Just…” I lose I know I’m losing “Just shut up!”

I punch her in a face. Hard. She falls down on the floor as she is so shocked. I was never this aggressive before but now it’s too much for me.

I don’t even realize what I did until I hear her loud scream.

“You are dead Bill Kaulitz! You are already dead!”

After these words she gets up and runs away from my room. So I’m alone. Angry and broken.

I can’t believe we came to this. I loved her. I love her yet I hate and despise her so much.

I slowly open my eyes and all these images from my past are gone. Now I’m here. Lying on the cold floor in the hallway of the school and I still breathe heavily. Somehow I can’t get up. My body hurts me so much. Everything is so wrong. I feel blood in my mouth.

“Get up idiot! You look pathetic!” someone screams to me but I don’t care.

I don’t care at all. About anything. I can’t care because it would kill me.

“I said get up and get the hell out of my sight before I’ll kill you. Isn’t it still enough for you? You wan more? Because if so I can give it to you!”

“No. Please” my voice is so pathetic but I manage to get up.

“You have 10 seconds faggot.”