Black Song (Tokio Hotel fan fiction)

3. Brothers

Bill’s POV

I stop running when I can’t breathe anymore. I fall down on my knee and hands and I try to not to pass out. I feel so exhausted, so sick of everything. I don’t even know where I am now. I just wanted to sleep but my father kicked me out of my bed. I can’t come back without money but I’m to tired to steal today. So I know I will spend the night somewhere on the street.

Suddenly I raise my head just in time to see two women in front of me. One of them is still a girl but the other…

I swallow the air. They are laughing and talking and they don’t even see me.

But I see them. Especially one of them. And it cuts my heart into pieces.

“Mom” I whisper but my voice is soundless.

I wanna reach my hand and touch her but I can’t. I hate her so much. I want to kill her. Make her suffer. Kill her. Hide myself in her arms.

But I get none of this.

They just pass by me not paying any attention.

“No please wait!” I wanna scream it but I only whisper again.

And in a second they are gone somewhere around the corner. And in a second my longing turns into anger. It’s like my body is on fire and I have to destroy something.

I get up from the ground and kick the air few times. I act like a crazy but I mean to little for everyone to pay any attention to me. So they ignore me. Even people on the street. I’m just invisible for them.

And maybe it’s time to make their dreams come true? Maybe it’s time for me to disappear?

Tom’s POV 

I don’t feel like coming back home tonight. I don’t even know if I still have a home. Perfect family? I don’t belong there anymore. Maybe few days ago I felt happy but now I don’t. I don’t wanna see my mother. I don’t want her to say ‘I love you Tom’ because how can she love me if she hates my brother?

The more I think about it the more questions I have. I understand that she and my real father can hate each other and that they divorce. But why they decided to separate us? Why couldn’t we stayed together? Why she picked up me and not Bill? Why did he do to her?

I’m so angry and confused that I star hitting the steering wheel with my hand. I just drive through the empty streets of the city. With no destination.

My mother tried to call me several times but I had enough so I turned off my phone. I don’t want people around me now.

So I drive through the streets I don’t know. The night is calm but so cold. It’s this kind of a night when you wish you would stay in your warm bed, underneath the blanket.

Part of my mind can’t stop thinking about Bill. I just can’t forget his eyes. They are so strange even if they are so perfectly the same and mine. And I can’t forget his face. Tired, sad, pale. Every second it breaks my heart. I hate this feeling but I don’t want to lose it.

Suddenly someone catches my attention and in a second I know what it is. I drive by a small park. It’s so dark around but I can see a tiny figure next to one of the benches. He sits and the ground and has his hands wrapped around the seat. His face is rested on his palms. I don’t know if he is asleep but it takes me less than a second to stop my car and get out of it. Next moment I already run in his direction.

“Bill!” I almost scream and he moves his head.

But I’m not sure if he sees me.

I kneel beside him. He is trembling and breathing hard.