Blessant pt II. (Blessant Sequel. Girl on girl.)

Chapter 5.

It's been a month since my mom was diagnosed with cancer. Since I had an affair with my ex fiancée while dating a woman who makes my heart ache with irritation.
Nothing's changed. My mom is getting weaker and weaker day by day, on constant medication. Her hair is constantly wrapped in a turban due to the rapid hair loss.
David is patient and kind with her, walking with her every step of the way. He's as scared to lose her as everyone else. He treated her right, and loved her.
Kathleen and I are still going at it. I still haven't broken up with Belle, which is tearing me up greatly inside.
Today our magazines finally hit the stores. People asked me about it, which made me nervous. At work, everyone asked me about our relationship but I shunned them, getting all the work I could done.
Work was finally over and I drove to Kathleen's house, forgetting the kids were with my mother, today. I knocked on the door and Kate's door swung open and I swear I saw the devil in her eyes.
She was angry. Very angry.
"Hey.." I trailed off.
"Please leave." She hissed. I was confused as I walked in.
"What's wrong?" I asked her. She closed her eyes.
"I said to leave, Annamarie." She repeated. I kept my mouth shut and just stood there. Then something hit my face.
"Ah shit." I hissed as my nose started to sting. I looked at what she threw at me and awkwardly glanced at her. It was the magazine.
"What the fück is this?" She asked.
"Uh.. A magazine." I responded.
"You're...you're fücking naked!" She yelled.
"Okay.." I said slowly.
"Since when were you some type of sex symbol, Anna? I thought you were against all of that!" Kate yelled. My face flushed.
"It's just a magazine. Relax." I said. She glared at me.
"Why should I relax? Oh yeah, because I shouldn't have a say in this, right? Because I'm not your real girlfriend right? Because if I was, this wouldn't have been real." She rambled angrily. I bit my lip and watched her.
"Come on.." I started. She cut me off.
"No. Get out. Go talk to your girlfriend about it since that's what she is, and the whole world knows now. Bye." She pushed me toward the door, but I grabbed her arms.
"Can you relax? I love you." I said. There was more silver in her eyes than blue.
"If you loved me so much, why haven't you broken up with her yet?" She asked quietly. I stayed silent. I couldn't answer.
"Get out, Anna." She breathed. I felt tears prick my eyes.
"No." I said. She started to nod.
"Yes. Get out. I'm not some sex slave. Get out." She said louder.
"No." I groaned as she tried pushing me away.
"What do you want from me?" I asked her.
"I want you to love me. Not her. I don't want to be hidden." She replied.
"Fine." I said taking out my phone. She gaped at me as I nonchalantly called Belle on my phone.
"Hello?" She said.
"Belle." I started.
"Hey babe! Oh I was just watching this movie called the Fault On Our Stars, and now I'm sitting here like oh I hate it so much. I was just gonna call you and tell you my thoughts." She started. I rolled my eyes.
"Belle.." I said.
"Oh before you say anything I just wanna tell you my views on it because ugh! I don't get it, they make these kids look like they have the greatest lives ever, like there's people with worst problems. When Augustus died from that bone cancer I just scoffed because they were so dramatic with it, like there's people with worst problems and Bone cancer isn't even that drastic." When she said that Kathleen's lips parted from shock and my hands began to tremble.
"Breathe." She mouthed. But it was too late.
"Annie?" She asked.
"What the fück is wrong with you?!" I yelled into the phone. Kathleen slapped herself in the forehead.
"W-what?" Belle stuttered.
"Why would you say something like that? My mother is dying from bone cancer, and you just go ahead and say that it's not a big deal? What the fück?!" I yelled.
"No I didn't m-" I cut her off.
"No. Fück you. You don't say shit like that. Good bye, Belle." I hung up the phone, groaning.
"Anna.." Kate said. I shook my head, stepping out her house and slamming the door shut.
People just have no type of heart.
I slumped down on the steps in front of her house and put my head between my knees.
I shouldn't have snapped like that.
I shouldn't have snapped like that, she didn't know.
I started to cry out of frustration. Loud noises of anger coming from my mouth. I put myself in this predicament.
"Anna it's okay, she didn't know." Kate said. I shook my head.
"It's why people shouldn't say things like that. That was horrible." I responded. I heard Kate take a seat next to me. We stayed quiet for a while, just breathing softly .
"I don't want to lose her. She's the only parent I have. If I lose her, what will I do? David's going to be crushed, Sara will be crushed. What about the kids?" I asked.
"They have David. He's more of a father to all of us then your dad was. You have to remember that." Kate implied.
"Have you seen her? She looks so weak, Kate. It could happen at any moment." I whimpered, tears getting ready to spill over.
"It's why we should spend time with her as much as possible, Anna." Kate advised. I started to cry, my tears falling on to the concrete steps from between my legs. I lifted my head and put it on Kate's shoulder. She held me as I cried, not caring that I got snot and tears on her shirt, or the staring pedestrians as they walked passed. I sat up and wiped my face with a tissue, before looking at Kate.
"I'm sorry." I said. Her silver blue eyes were sad.
"Why?" She asked.
"Because I got snot on your shirt." I said, which made her laugh.
"Stupid." She giggled.
"Nah, but I'm sorry that I have to put you through all this pain. I don't want to break her heart, but I don't want to break yours. She has a daughter who adores Salix, and she adores me enough to have me model for a new LGBT magazine she wanted to publish. I don't know what to do. I'm trapped." I admitted. Kate stared at me for a moment. She leaned in and kissed me on the lips.
"I love you, but this is something you need to figure out on your own. You either break up with her, Or...you break up with me." I saw tears build in her eyes as she said that.
"Well I did just yell at her and stuff. Does that count?" I asked. Kate shook her head.
"Tell her in person. That would be more appropriate." She responded. I nodded, kissing Kate once more. She kissed me back, before pulling away as we heard someone clear their throat.
"Jesus will get you." She mumbled. I looked at Kate, before laughing. Kate shook her head.
"Can we go to your moms house?" She asked. I nodded and helped her up. She was in light blue jeans and a v-neck shirt. Her hair was in a bun.
"You look cute." I said. She blushed, rolling her eyes.
"Let's go."