Shadow boy (BoyXBoy)

Cry for me

                                                       TWO WEEKS LATER 

Lashes pov.

Me and Ashe's have been getting along extremely well...all i can hope is everything turns out well. I-i think I might love him....what if he doesn't love me back? I thought I herd him say some things  whal I was in my apparent "coma" but how can I know it was real? I'm to chicken shit to ask him anyways.

Would he feel the same? Will he hurt me? Would he yell or scream at me? Would he....say it back? These were just some of the questions that were going through my head as i was thinking about if i should tell him. I was thinking a mile a minuet at that point "Hey lash, sleep well?" Ashe's sleepy voice asked me.

I lied, I had not been sleeping well. Constantly having the same nightmare every night. It left me a wreak, completely. So i said a shaky "Ya, stars and unicorns!" hoping he would believe me.

OK, this is something I should clarify now, i have officially moved in with Ashe's and his parents. After mine were sent to prison on charges of abuse and child-endangerment. It was either I moved in with family or someone very close....or I go to a foster home in Michigan. So I very hesitantly asked ash, he just smiled and have me a quick hug before asking his parent's.

All I know is there was a quick discussion, smiles, hug's and they told me i could stay as long as I wanted to. After that the doctors made me stay in the hospital for another three days, after I woke up from my "coma". Ash told me how i got to the hospital...I slowly started to remember almost being raped. H-he saved me...but why? He did it because he cares "No he doesn't, no one cares. Why would anyone care about a useless fag like you!?" The terrible voice inside my head told me.

I try not to listen, but I do...and it kills me a little inside every time. My old habit, my addiction is so tempting. I'm surprised the doctors coulden't tell! Me and ash were going to take a trip down to my house, not home. Never was and never will be. I had been avoiding doing this for the few days i had been staying at his house.

Going there and moving all of my stuff to ashe's house that was down the street. Today is dark and dreary, perfect "You ready Lash?" Ashe's voice floats to me from the kitchen. Yes I'm completely ready yo go the the place i was almost raped and abused in for years..."Ya, you?" I replied, but my voice wasn't as confident as i was hoping it would come out.

"Make sure you kids are home by nine PM for dinner, we can have tacos. Is that OK guys?" Ashe's step-mom asks up quickly before we head out in the gloomy weather to gatherer my things from the house. We both say simultaneous "Yes's" and head out the door just as it starts misting.

"Good ol' Ohio weather!" I remark sarcastically as it starts coming down harder and we start to run to the house that i used to consider a hell. We finally arrive at the falling apart, splinters wood door to the house. I turn the knob and open the door slowly. Ashe's steps inside as I'm to petrified to move, he calls my name but i can't hear it.

All of the sudden I feel something warm wrap around my hand and start to pull me into the worst part of my past. I feel myself slipping and dots appear in my vision. "Lash, are you OK?" is the "

I wake up on a bed with someone next to me. I almost freak out until i see that it's ash that's beside me. But wait...why are we in my bed, at my old house? And why is ash in the same bed as me practically cuddled into my chest. I start poking his nose to try and wake him up.

"Hmmm?" Is the response i get. So without thinking i just lay back down and give him a bone crushing hug. "Dude what the fuck was that?" He asked in a sleepy voice "I had to wake you up some how didn't I?" He just laughed at my remark. He Saw my face and could tell i wanted to know what happened.

"Well you passed out... so set you on the bed and packed your clothes that i could find in the box in the corner." I just smiled and stole a look at is beautiful dark brown eyes. "Well it's only seven thirty so we have a little while to pack the rest of your stuff, Lashes." I said OK and went to grab more boxes.

When I finally found them and made it back to my room in the small house i found him with the box that contained my secrets. "What the fuck are these, Lashes?" "N-nothing" I tried to say with tears in my eyes. He carefully set the black box on my old bed and made his way over to me.

With his soft and caring hands he took my left arm lifted up the sleeve. He ran his fingers on the damaged skin on my wrist and forearm. The one thing he asked me turned my world upside down and I slowly started to break. The simple word why was all he asked me. Crying and breathing hard i gave him the honest answer:

"It's only because i haven't had the courage to end it all yet, but love the pain, so it makes me want to keep going. That's why they call it a addiction." I state with a blank look in my eyes, and my voice wavering at the end. Ash gives me a concerned and loving look-"wait what are you thinking Lash? No one cares...especialy him. Once he finds out about other "things" HIM and his family will discard you like disgusting trash! You know that's all you are..."

He just continues to look at you, he lifts his hand and I flinch. I know...well I hope I he would never want to hurt me. "W-why did you flinch?" Ashe's asks looking hurt by my actions, i wish i could take it back. "I'm sorry...I was scared you were going to hit me" I say with a small sob at the end.

Ashe's just stares at me before a look of realization comes over him. He starts to remember my past and what I have told him of it from the past few days. He looks me in the eyes with a content idea behind him. "Lashe's you know I would never hurt you, right? I promise i will protect you." All i can do is look at him, not even in the eyes. I give him a strangled "I-I know...thank you"

I tell him I need to use the bathroom, he says a quick "OK" and "Lash, I'm going to call my mom and tell her we might just spend the night here...is that OK with you?" Ash asked me carefully as if i was going to panic. I smiled at him sadly murmuring a "Ya that's fine, but I don't know what we could do for dinner." He gave me a small smirk and said "We will manage."

After that i was about to go grab more blankets and pillows from somewhere in tho house. Or maybe I should look to see if we have any food, I thought to myself. Well before i heard Ash state "Oh and Lash, we are going to talk about the box. I will not stand by as you do this. I care about you and i don't want you hurt, OK?" His eyes started to glaze over a little...Wait was he going to cry?

No, no, no.

Stop thinking like that! I was having a war inside me weather to trust the boy that saved me, or always be alone. "I choose to take a chance" I whispered "What, are you OK Lash?" I looked him in the eyes and smiled "I- I'm going to take a chance in something. Once in my life, please don't hate me." I told him slowly, he gave me a questioning look and a muffled "OK"

With a last wavering breath and a last thought of 'I hope I made the right choice.'

I lent towards him and chased his lips agents mine forcefully. At first he was still in shock, but gradually he moved his lips in sync with mine. His lips were rough and chapped but I loved the feeling of them agents my own. He started to snake his arm under my shirt and feel my warm skin. I wanted to make a move so wrapped my fingers in his hair and pulled lightly as our lips were locked.

This action earned me a few moans that started to get to e down there after a while

-To Be Continued

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~Nikkie~