Alone- Eponine

Chapter 5

3 months later...

I cannot stop thinking about Jehan. I don't know what it is about him but he's just perfect. I don't know how I will be able to see him again though, but I know that I must find a way. I will do almost anything if it means being able to see him again. Even if it means having to lash out against Montparnasse and get myself kicked out.

On a not so good note, I think I'm pregnant. I don't want to be because it will mean that I will have to be bound to Montparnasse forever but I think I will be. I have been putting weight on really quickly and I fear for the baby's health. I'm going to Montparnasse's again today. Recently I've been going every week. It's been horrific. I have only seen Jehan once since the first time I went and Montparnasse is being more pervy than ever now. It's as though I'm not a human anymore, just this object that he can use to satisfy his own personal sex needs. It's horrible. I'm going over again in a few hours and I think that I should tell him now.

As I get to Montparnasse's his house looks almost as familiar as my own. I can just feel it that I will be living here soon. I knock and Montparnasse opens the door almost immediately then slams it behind me. I know exactly what to do now. I just go up, lie on the bed and wait. This time though I don't lie down. I speak as soon as he comes up.

"Montparnasse, I have something really important to tell you!"

"Hurry up then Ep, I want to make the most of your visit."

"I-I don't really know h-how to put this but I think... I think that I'm pregnant."

He says nothing but a little smirk appears in his face as though he was expecting it and knew exactly what to do. Instead of saying anything at a he just left the room. He came back a few minutes later carrying a small box.

"Eponine Thenardier," he said as he dropped down onto one knee. "Will you marry me?"

I was so shocked. I just didn't know what to do. I know what I wanted to do and what I had to do but they were both very different things. I suppose I have no other choice but to say...

"Of course, I will!" (I couldn't say no. At least not yet.)

Then he picked me up and twirled me around loads of times as though he really loved me. But then as he started undressing me I thought maybe not. I don't know what it was about this meeting that was majorly different but the caressing wasn't do hard and cold and he seemed to act as if he respected me. I didn't stay the night this time, and Montoarnasse took me back home at about 9pm. As I wasn't in that much of a awful mood this time I went to talk to Azelma.

"Az? If I tell you something would you promise not breathe a word of it to anyone?"

"Of course Ep. You know me."

"But Az, that's why I'm asking. So anyway. Montparnasse has just proposed, but somehow I think it was only because I told him I was pregnant. But also at the amount of food I'm eating the baby won't last long." As I told her this her got really shiny and she just left as if she had nothing left to say to me.