Becoming the Bad Boy [ON HOLD]

Chapter 11

Becoming the Bad Boy
Chapter 11

I felt empty. It had been a couple of weeks since I had last spoken to April. It hurt so much. To see her in the corridor and not approach her.

And there she was, across the corridor talking to Daniel.

She looked beautiful and I just wanted to go up to her and tell her that what happened before was a mistake and I wanted to tell her that I loved her. I loved the way she was the first person that cracked my shell and break down the walls that I had built up to protect myself. She was the first person.

But I couldn't. Because I'm a fuck up. I was forced to turn around and pretend that I don't care. I knew she was also hurting because of the way she never smiles anymore. But she will move on because she doesn't deserve someone like me.

I was interrupted by my thoughts when I heard whimpering behind me and I immediately looked back to find April cornered. They began to call her hideous and disgusting names and I was shocked by the way that these people are so cruel.

I growled and Amelia faced me, smirking. "Back off." I said and stared into her eyes. She slowly retreated and left the corridor, everyone else already in class.

"Thank you." I barely heard the whisper but my eyes watched as her own filled with pain. I was causing her that fucking pain. I couldn't speak- I knew that my voice would crack because of the emotions coursing through my mind. So I just shrugged. A simple shrug that caused this in the first place.

The tears were running down her face but I had no choice. I had to do this for her. I kept telling myself that even if she was in pain right now, it would save her in the future. She would be better off without me.

"Ezra." She whispered as she stepped closer. My heart broke. I could feel the pain in her voice. I forced all of the emotion from my face.

"Why are you doing this, Ez?" Because I want to protect you.

I shrugged.

"Is that all you can fucking do? Shrug?" I stared at the girl before me in shock. She was so angry, that she found it necessary to swear. April never swears.

I plastered on a cold smirk and shrugged again. 'Yes, it's the only thing that I can do because I don't want you to see how I really feel. It'll break both you and I.' I mentally told her. But I couldn't say the words out loud. So for the second time, I turned away and disappeared with my heavy heart.

**

Ezra. It's funny how I loved you with all my heart. You stomped on it until it broke into tiny little shards. Yet, I still loved you with all the pieces. Through this note, I just wanted to let you know that I love you. And the way that you don't love me back just proves that no one would ever love me because I'm useless and worthless. I'll still love you, from afar where I will be happy. I hope you the best in this life without me. I love you and Goodbye.

**

My car groaned as I swiftly shut off the engine and slammed the door shut, my feet bounding up her driveway to pound against the door. Her brother answered and I pushed passed him, bounding up the stairs to find only one closed door. I could hear her brother asking me what I was doing but I took no notice as I banged onto the locked door, repeatedly shouting Aprils name. I used my shoulder to slam it into the door and I staggered into the room as the door finally gave out from the force.

"April." I whispered as I stared at the sight before me. Rushing toward her, I fell onto my knees pulling the limp girl into my arms. Her brother stood by the door, looking into the room with a hand over his open mouth. He called the ambulance while I rocked April in my arms, blaming myself for being so stupid and making her feel like this. It's all my fucking fault. Everything is.

In my attempts to save her from everything else, I forgot the most important thing to protect her from- herself. Because we all know that deep inside ourselves, there is a monster that wants to be set free.

And Aprils monster just escaped.