Don't let me go // Louis Tomlinson

Chapter 14

Arielle POV-

I'm scared to go to sleep. I'm still in this weird ghostly state and I'm afraid that if I close my eyes, I might never wake up. I've felt numb this whole time, in denial I guess. I'm getting weaker, I can feel it. I don't know how but I can sometimes feel myself slipping away.

I'm dying

It hadn't really sunk in until now. I think that scares me more than anything. Death

Death means never getting married, never having kids, never seeing Louis' face again. I don't know how to even comprehend that, but I don't know how else to keep fighting. Im tired and I'm worn out. How am I supposed to keep fighting when I already feel lost?
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Louis POV-

It's been days since the accident and she isn't making any progress. The doctor said that she might be getting worse. The swelling in her brain isn't going down and she's not reacting well to the medicine.

I'm terrified

I can't eat, I don't sleep anymore because I'm afraid something might happen to her if I close my eyes. If I loose Ari, I don't know what I'll do.

I feel numb

I can't cry anymore, I'm out of tears. I've run dry. I can't feel. I accidentally broke a glass this morning and glass got stuck in my skin, but I felt nothing. No pain, to tears, nothing.

I can't even feel my heart beat anymore. I don't have any physical proof that I'm alive. I can't even feel the air entering my lungs.

I haven't spoken in days. Not a word. Harry and the other boys keep coming in here trying to cheer me up but I tune them out. Nothing they say or do can fix Ari.

She's all I care about. I'd give up everything for her.

Even my own life...

Flashback-

The months following the X-factor were some of the best of my life. Sure we hadn't won she competition but we got a greater victory instead. We were a band. A real band with a contract and all, and we had recorded out first single, What makes you beautiful.

Since we were not very experience in the music industry yet, we didn't really have a say in writing the song, but every verse, every word reminded me of Ari.

After our first date, yea had started going out more until I finally got her to be mine. We've been dating for several months now, and it's been like paradise.

Every moment with her is better than the last. Her eyes, her smile, her laugh, all make me giddy like a school boy. I think deep down I knew from our first date that I was in love with her. It was kinda that love at first sight thing. I didn't admit my feeling for her for quite a while though. I've had a history of telling the girl I love you first and it all ended in a bunch of headache. I needed to make sure that she felt the same about me before I showed her my heart.

Not to boast or anything, but if you ask me, it was easy to tell Ari was in love with me. I could see it in her eyes. The way they sparkled every time we laughed or the way she blushed when I would call her beautiful.

Armed with the information I needed, I then set off to tell Ari how hopelessly in love with her I am.

I wanted it to be special, but still like a normal date so she wouldn't suspect anything. I decided to cook a nice, candlelight dinner for Ari and then I'd confess my feelings for her.

Everything was perfect.

I was still in the kitchen cooking when Ari came home.

"Lou? Where are you?"

"I'm in the kitchen babe"

I was cooking something on the stove when she came over and wrapped her arms around me.

Then I turned around and planted a sweet kiss on her lips.

"Whatcha making babe? Smells incredible"

"It's a surprise" I say with a mischievous look on my face

We spend the rest of the time while the foods cooking in the kitchen, just doing silly stuff and chatting.

We talked about our days like cliche couples do and we joked and laughed

When she saw the bowl of cherries sotting on the counter, she got a mischievous sparkle in her eye.

She picked two cherries and handed me one, then said that we were gonna have a little competition. We both put the cherry stems in our mouths at the same time and tried to tie it in a knot using just our tongue.

She was much better at it then me, Ari won this time

We spent probably the whole night on the kitchen floor being goofy and immature and acting like lovestruck teenagers. We totally forgot to even eat the meal i cooked, we were high on love and we weren't coming down anytime soon. It was then when i told Ari three words, eight letters.

We had just finished up doing silly accents and laughing like maniacs. From an outsiders point of view, we would've looked like two crazy drunks sitting on the floor, laughing till it hurts. But we weren't drunk, i was sober as a judge. The only thing i was drunk on was love.

After our crazy laughter had subsided, i took her hands in mine and i went for it. I was scared. Hell, i was shaking, but i loved her and i needed to say it.

We just stared at each other for a while in silence. I observed her, the way her dark brown waves cascaded down her back with a few unruly strands sticking up, and how her tan complexion would get a slight crimson tint when i looked at her and how she would look down at the ground with those big brown eyes of her's as the heat rose to her cheeks.

Then, i said it

"Ari..." i began

"Ari i know we haven't been together for the longest time, and that we're both young and stupid and that some people would think that what we have wont last, that its just a petty relationship.....but its not. before i met you i didn't know the difference between loving someone, and being in love with someone. you've taught me the difference Ari. I've realized that you can love as many people as you want, but you're only in love once. you may think that you've been in love many times, but thats not true. you may have loved them, but being in love is different. its like slow motion and fast forward mixed into one. It makes you wanna puke and piss yourself, and go running thru a field of sunflowers all at the same time. its very hard to come by these days, and i was once told that when i fall in love, i have to hold on to it, never let it go..
Ari, I'm so hopelessly in love with you. I know I'm young, i know we're young, but i cant deny this feeling thats deep inside. Im in love with you Arielle...so in love...."

END OF FLASHBACK

It seems like those flashbacks are the closest things i get to sleep. its a day dream almost.

A time when i don't feel conscious even though i am.

That was by far my most favorite memory of the two of us. not just because i told her i wad in love with her, but because of how much fun and how enjoyable her company was. we were just sitting on the floor talking, probably the least romantic thing in the world, yet it was perfect.

The thing was, it didn't have go be totally romantic, it was us. Silly, and not serious, and laid back.

No matter what, no matter what happens, this is how i will always remember Ari.....

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A/N

I suck i know!!!!!! *tomatoes thrown*

Sorry it took me 5746447 years to update, I'm just a lazy person lol. And this is so not edited, theres prob 4646556 mistakes! lol! Im loving all the comments, so please continue to share your thoughts! Also, keep voting!! And to everyone whose added my book to their reading lists, THANKS YALL!! it really means the world to me!

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