awkward.

First Time.

-Afterwards-

It was.. something different..he was gentle but i could tell he really wanted it too.. We just lay on each other he says 'so... did you.. like it?' I say 'yeah...' He sighs in relief 'cool..i didn't know if you expected something else or?' I say ' Tyler .. it was perfect..' He says 'good. I'm glad you enjoyed it..' I look up at him..I really love him.. He holds me and the covers are the only thing protecting us if my mom made a early arrival back home..He holds me tight but affectionately .. he says ' i love you..im in love with you ...' I say ' i love you too and I'm in love with you too T..'

He says ' .. you want something to eat?? i could go get something..' I say ' lennys .. you know my favorite..'He smiles ' okay ill be back..' He gets up and gets dressed he leaves out ' ill be back..' I sit on my bed and just think did i make the right decision..of course i did.. Ive wanted this to happen with him for a while.. its just never been the right time..

I just lay there and contemplate .. I get up and put on a tee shirt and shorts.. I put my sheets in the washer.. and I sit on the couch downstairs.. I lay down on the couch and i feel different .. nothing bad just different. A while later Tyler comes back and we eat and lay on the couch ..he lays on my lap.. We watch tv.. We both stat talking at the same time and laugh I say ' you can go..' He says ; .. thanks for letting me share that experience with you baby' I say 'yeah.. i wanted you to be my first... you mean the world to me..' He chuckles' good.. you mean the world to me too..'

We chill and he spends the night..His tour leaves tomorrow night.. ugh.. that means.. i won't see him at school.. i won't see him over my house all of the time.. I wake up and we decided to hang out today and go out all of us to getter.. We chill around all day and go skateboarding all of that their getting on the bus.. Tyler laughs ' look I'm trusting you with my bimmer .. okay' I smirk 'i know.. I'm gonna take care of the bimmer.. ' He grabs my wast and holds my waist he kisses my lips softly and smiles ' ill call you later..' I smile ' okay have fun..'

They leave i get in his car and drive home..My mom will be back next week..I go upstairs and lay down.. Im so bored..I just chill around i change clothes and notice tyler left one of his hoodies.. I put it on..and watch the boondocks..

I get on my laptop and start working on a beat.. i've been wanting to get more into music ... but nothing serious.. I doubt i could be as big as cudi or kanye.. I start to work on the beat more and it sounds pretty good.. .. My phone rings and its the event guy from the poetry slam I say ' hey ' He says 'hey if your not busy tomorrow i was wondering if you wanted to meet about this event i have ..' I say 'really?? sure just text me the details..' He says ' okay have a nice night' I say ' same to you' I hang up and fall asleep.. I wake up and hear my doorbell ring' I walk downstairs and see Syd..' I laugh ' thought you we're gone..' She chuckles ' nah I'm flying out tonight i just wanted to visit my favorite girl..' I laugh ' come in.. i just woke up so.. excuse the face' She laughs 'you look just a beautiful as usual .. what you been up to?' I say ' i wrote this cool song last night wanna hear??' She says ' sure..' I run upstairs and grab my laptop and bring it back down I let her hear it..' She smiles 'thats amazing ' You should release that...' I laugh ' its ok.. ' She says 'nah I'm serious that could be a banger.. send it to me i'll release it for you get you a platform.. put it on your sound cloud '

I smile 'okay.. i guess' She says 'ay.. you wanna catch lunch before i leave' I sy 'yeah i have a meeting with this guy about an event later so let me get dressed' I go upstairs and put on a sweater , white tee, leggings and some ankle boots with a small heel. I let my curls down and we head to lunch in my moms range.. We drive and get lunch and chill I drop her back off and head to the meeting..

I walk into the lounge.. I g own the guy smiles ' Dylan ??!' I smile ' hey..' He says ' come over here we can chill in here before it gets to busy..' I smile ' okay..' We sit at a table.. I say 'this place looks different in the day' He chuckles ' yeah hows your day been?' I smile ' pretty good.. you??' He says 'same here.. i wanted to introduce you to my son he's closer to the people than me he's gonna be conducting this meeting I have a meeting with a new cook..' I smile ' okay.. thats cool..'

Suddenly a guy walk over he's brown skin. reminds me of frank a little.. he has a curly man bun.. a few tattoos.. I stand up and smile ' nice to meet you I'm Dylan..' He smiles ' I'm Allen..' He sits down and smiles ' okay so basically i want to talk to you about a house contract..' I say ' really??!' He chuckles 'yeah.. I heard you sing too right?' I say ' yeah.. ' He says ' we could work out something if you want to..' I smile ' okay cool..' He chuckles 'but first i need you to get on stage show me what you can do..' I say ' now ?' He smiles ' can you come back tonight at 7 and sing?" I say ' yeah sure..' He says ' okay and for the next poetry contest we always have the winner help judge the next one..itll be next month i can email you the info..' I say ' yeah okay..' I give him the email..

We talk some more and he's really cool.. He walks me out to my car and smiles at me..' if your not doing anything after the show we could could hang out..' I say.' yeah maybe..' He smiles ' see you beautiful..' I get in the car and get on my instagram i post a pic 'catch me at the grove cafe at 7 if you can' My phone rings I pick it up and here tyler 'hey baby/..' I smile ' i miss you ' He chuckles ' i miss you too.. how you doing?' I say ' good you?' He says ' were on the way to ..new york.. .im nervous as fuck..'

I say ' don't be nervous babe..' He says ' so your performing today?' I laugh ' yeah..ill send it to you..' He says 'cool....well i gotta go i just wanted to check in with you..' I say ' cool love you..' He says ' love you too' We hang up..and i head home and get dressed for later..I head to the place and sing everything goes well.

-TBC-