I love the things you hate about yourself // k.s.j

Chapter 1.

1/10/2016

I woke up to a rough start again today. I felt horrible.

My body was trembling and my head was spinning. It almost felt like I was going to explode.

But the good thing is my mum let me stay in today. This is only because tomorrow's a big day and she doesn't want me to stress too much.

So you may be wondering, why is it a big day tomorrow?

Well after the divorce, my mum really wanted to start anew. So she started looking for a new home outside of NYC. Finally, she came across one that she really loved and it was in Los Angeles.

And there you go, we're moving to the city of angels.

I'm kind of excited because we'll be leaving all the bad memories behind and striving for new happier ones. But then again I'm also not.

I'm scared. I'm scared for what's waiting for us. I'm scared about the many possibilities that could happen. I am also scared of meeting new people...

*skips to moving day*
1/11/2016

"Honey, its 4.30am already. Wake up we have to leave soon!"

I groaned a little and tossed to my side.

"Its too fucking early" I mumbled.

The flight is in 2 hours but we live like an hour away hence the early call time.

I tossed again and then dragged myself to the bathroom, literally.

Ive taken a shower last night alreaady so I just proceeded to wash my face with a face wash and then brushed my teeth.

After doing so, I changed into a white crop top, black sweatpants, a red flannel and a pair of Nike flyknits before doing my makeup.

I just did my brows, put on a little bit of mascara and lip balm on my lips. I didn't wanna Beat my face because that's just too much for a long flight.

Then, I grabbed my bag and suitcases before taking a final look at my room.

"Goodbye NYC, it was nice while it lasted. I'm going to miss you" I let out a sigh and then proceeded to the uber that was waiting outside.

We reached the airport with 45 mins to spare. So, I decided that we'd go to Starbucks.

I ordered a  caramel macchiato and a bagel. While grubbin' I decided to browse through Twitter and Instagram on my phone.

On twitter, there was a video of a boy, perhaps around my age dancing. He was pretty good and actually not that bad looking haha

I scrolled through that twitter account and came across a few more of his dancing.

"Wow his actually really cute" I thought to myself.

I liked the videos and then an announcement came on the speaker.

"Good morning passengers. This is the pre-boarding announcement for flight 89B to Los Angeles, California.  Please
have your boarding pass and identification ready. Thank you."

My mum turned towards me with her hand behind my back and gave me a reassuring smile.

We took our bags and proceeded to board the plane. It took off within a few minutes. I plugged in my headphones and and shuffled a playlist.

The sun was beginning to rise and it was the most breathtaking scene i've ever seen. Slowly after I drifted off to sleep.

-To be Continued-