virgin ❥ jastin ~DISCONTINUED~

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This chapter is kind've a filler and it's boring but it's adorable, so read it

Justin and I laid our backs against the mattress. Hearing the soft music playing that came from his laptop, I noticed how Justin usually zones out a lot or just starts playing with random things so his mind could be occupied. He was blanking out as his brown eyes stared up at ceiling, like he was daydreaming.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked suddenly.

His beautiful eyes turned to look at me as he bit his lip. I knew that he was nervous since every time he does get nervous he tends to bite his lip.

"I don't know" He said as he let out a aspirated sigh. His body was now facing me as the soft skin of his hands began to grasp my arm. I loved the way he felt against me.

Everything around me was dull and the only thing that grasped my mind was him.

I wanted him so badly. Well, actually it's more than wanting. I needed him, I needed him close to me or else I would go crazy. I needed to hear his soothing voice and his wonderful laugh. He made me so vulnerable it was kind've scary. I loved him so much that it impossible for me to let him go.

I was practically stalking him weeks before I met him. Looking out my open window, seeing that his blinds weren't shut. Hoping to see him naked or any types of clothing off, or just seeing him undress. I was using him for my own pleasure and it pained to see how disgusting it was and how blind I was to see it.

I know now that Justin needs someone who is worthy of him. Someone who can make him happy or someone his own age. Even though if it angered me to see him with anybody else or any other man.

He needs someone better than me. Someone who deserves him.

"Why are you staring at me?" He asked me.

"Sometimes it's hard not to stare at pretty things" I told him calmly as I moved my hands to his cheek and massaged it softly with the pad of my thumb. His eyes closing as he became more comfortable with my touch.

He was practically purring like a kitten.

I moved my arms his waist, bringing him more close to me as I inhaled his vanilla scent. His nose hitting my chest as I could feel his eyelashes fluttering softly.

"Justin"? I asked. He looked up at me with calm eyes. Moving his fingers across the pillow.

"Has anyone...ever like... hurt you before?"

"Why?" He asked me, biting his lip once again. As his eyes looked around the room making it obvious he was nervous again.

"Just something I wanted to ask, you don't have to answer if you don't want to..." I reassured him, making sure he was okay with it.

"It doesn't matter" he told me, trying to completely dismiss the conversation but I wouldn't let him.

"It matters to me Justin, you know it does".

He stayed silent after that, going back to what he was doing before. Trying not to look at me at all. Noticing that his hair was sprawled out, I softly moved it back in

There was thick tension in the room. Hoping to break the tension, I snuggled Justin's small frame closer to me, Making sure he wasn't so uneasy towards me. I noticed that Justin was asleep, the room contaminating of light breaths.

I couldn't help the smile that stretched across my face at the way he nuzzled his nose across my neck. If I could just lay here for the rest of my existence on this earth with Justin, I would've.

I was contemplating on whether or not to touch him, since I didn't want to wake him. But I wouldn't know if I could ever get another chance to be so close to him like this. I moved my hand up to his arm, caressing the soft skin the complied under my touch.

Looking down, I noticed to see how pretty he looked. It confused me on how this beautiful boy could ever be so insecure of himself. Oh how I want to get revenge on those who made him feel this way. But I knew he was here, safe in my arms so all the anger went away.

I felt his cheery lips move against my chest and his head turned away from me, facing the other way. Sooner or Later I knew I had to leave my baby. Knowing that I don't want to be caught and sent to jail for being in the same room with their son. I wish I could stay here forever in a alternate universe where these types of relationships weren't restricted and I could just date Justin and we could be free, leaving a happy life.

Sadly, it doesn't work that way. Now, I know that Justin and I are allowed to date as he is 16 years old. The only thing that's illegal is us engaging into sexual activities. Yet most of the times the parents still forbid the relationship by looking at me as a pedophile and I don't want that to happen.

Now I know I'm probably over thinking it but I would never know if it would be the last time I could be with Justin so I would like to cherish it.

My phone suddenly vibrated against my palm as I saw that it was my alarm to get ready for work. As my schedule goes from Morning, Night, Morning (time periods that he works)

I carefully untangled myself from Justin, trying not to wake him up and put on my coat. Giving him a goodbye kiss on his forehead and Climbed down the ladder. I put the ladder against the house and walked across the neighbor hood to my house.

While I was walking, I decided that I would try to take Justin out on a date. It would be risky yeah, but it would be worth it!

I'll try to make his first date, the best date ever.