Forbidden Love

Chapter 6

*1 week later *

Today the tour starts. From now on I have to spend 3 months with my ex-boyfriend. This will be so much fun. Not. At 3 PM the tourbus leaves for an hour long ride to the first venue. My mom takes me to Paramount studios, where the bus will leave.

"- Alright, good luck honey. And be nice to Kendall. He's your brother now.

- I will mom." But I didn't mean that. I hug my mom one more time before stepping on the tourbus.

"- Okay. Lindsey is here, so let's go!" Logan shouts. Apparently I'm the last one to arrive. Again.

"- So, are you excited?" Logan asks.

"- Yeah, but also a bit nervous. I never performed for such a big audience before.

- I'm sure you'll do great." Kendall interrupts our conversation.

"- Of course you do." I say irritated and roll my eyes. I hear him sigh. I pick up my bags and carry them to the sleeping part of he bus.

 The rest of the ride was a complete nightmare. Everytime Logan and I try to talk, Kendall comes in again. I Always answer him like the first time. He shouldn't be interrupting us. I can tell Logan is getting tired of us, but he doesn't say a word about it. When we finally arrive, I couldn't get out any faster. I want to open the door but it's locked. Logan's already out. Great, now I'm alone with Kendall. I look for a window to see what's happening. I see Logan standing outside, waving to us.

"- Logan, let us out!" I shout.

"- NO!

- This is not funny, Logan!" Kendall screams.

"- NO! I won't let you out before you two talk. I can't handle one more ride with you fighting!

- There's no time for this bullshit.! The fans are waiting!

- And it would be a shame if we'd let them wait, right? Well, if you two talk fast, than they won't have to wait to long!

- Logan, you are the worst best friend ever!

- Just talk! " With that, he turns around, puts his fingers in his ears so that he wouldn't hear us anymore.

"- Okay, let's just talk. I don't like letting my fans wait.

- oh, like the way you let me wait that day?  Tells a lot about the way you cared about me.

- That's not it.

- It's exactly what it is.

- Lindsey, just listen to me...

- No, you listen to me! It took me 5 years to get over you! 5 years! And when I'm almost over you, you come back in my life! I cried a month after that day! I lost my friends cause I was sitting home crying about you! Only my best friend stayd cause she knew what was going on! I haven't had a real relationship after you because everytime I started to get closer to a guy, I called him 'Kendall' ! I kept waiting a year for the day that you'd come back! I called you every day hoping that you'd answer! But no, every single time, the same stupid sentence: Sorry, the number you dialed is no longer available." I'm crying my eyes out now.

"- Linds, I'm sorry, I-I...

- Don't call me Linds! Only my family and friends can call me that. Not you!" I sob.

"- Okay. But when I left, I'd never tought it would hurt so much.

- You're serious." I say sarcastic. I'm so pissed.

"- Will you please just listen to me?!" He scares me with his reaction.

"- Don't yell !

- Then listen.

- Fine.

- I didn't leave because I wanted to break up with you. The day before, they called me that I had the part in Big Time Rush.

- So that's a reason to leave without a word?

- Let me finish! They told me to take my bags and move to L.A. . So, I did. I wanted to come to you and tell everything, but I had to leave immediately. I tried calling you, but the producers had blocked my Phone. When I asked for an explanation when we arrived in Los Angeles, they said that contacts from the past could ruin my career before it even started. So I let everyone go. But not Dustin, cause he moved here anyway.

- So you found your career more important than me? Good to know. I keep learning more about you.

- No, not at all. I kept thinking about you day and night. I even tried to reach you, but somehow they blocked every single number, e-mailadress in Kansas. There was no way to contact you.

- Why didn't you visit me?" I wasn't so mad anymore.

"- Cause the first time I was back in Kansas, was 3 years ago. When I got to your house, it wasn't you or your mom that opened the door, but a women I didn't know. I asked about you, but she told me that 3 weeks before you had moved to go to college and your mom had an appartement somewhere elsee. I asked where you went, but she didn't know.

- So, you did come visit me..." I stand up to face him and look him in the eyes.

"- I did. I never stopped loving you."