I'm Your Girl - EXO

Chapter 8

My mind is blank, strangely. Thoughts were racing in my head so fast just a few hours ago but now I don't think of anything. I don't feel anything, I don't hear anything, I don't see anything.

But I lift my head up when the door opens. I wait for Hwa Yeon to close the door behind herself then without actually looking at her face, I sprint towards her. It's not her I'm looking at, I don't see how pale and sad and terrified she looks and how she's trembling at that there's anger and guilt in her eyes unlike her parents' eyes. I'm not looking at her, I'm looking at an enemy, someone I made up for myself who I can hate for every bad thing that ever happened to me, every bad thing I ever did,  every failure I  ever had. I saw all of that in her and before she could react I pushed her against the wall, my hands around her throat.

I don't hear a shriek come out from her mouth then slowly falter, I don't feel her small hands gripping my arm, I don't see a tear stream down her cheeks.

I come to my senses when someone hits me on the head and I fall down. I don't see properly and I can't stand up but I can see Hwa Yeon drop to the floor beside me catching her breath, then I see everything in slow motion.

I hear her breathing as loud as my own heart beat and we look at each other. Her face is white as a porcelain doll's and her eyes are teary. I was probably injected with something because I feel myself go numb but my mind is more alive than a few minutes ago. 

I wait for pain but to my surprise it's Hwa Yeon getting the hits, not me. Why are they hitting her, I wonder? I was the one trying to kill her and caused them all the trouble, then why are they hitting their own daughter?

I faint into unconciousness with strange thoughts. I don't understand anything.