Chasing Pavements.

Chapter 57

((This is a filler chapter, I'm sorry that it's so bad, it's a filler before the end. The last one.))

*Harry's POV*

It's getting closer to the day that I will have to end everything, I will have to say goodbye to the people that I love more than anything, luckily, the past few weeks have gone so well for me and Katie, and I'm over the moon as it means hopefully I will be able to end it on a happy note, however I have yet to discuss why I am leaving, or even mentioned that I am leaving, also that I'm leaving her.

I turn to my side, I am welcomed by the beauty before me with a grin, filled with hope and happiness. Her little puffs of breath sneakily escape from her full lips. I place a swift kiss onto her forehead, before lying myself back down next to her. My brain over takes my thoughts on Katie and makes them 10x worse.

Would I of had a future with her? I'm questioned by my bitter subconscious. But he's right, would i? How far were we most likely to go before we both realised that we were unhealthy for each other, that we shouldn't have been together, would she of left me for someone better, yes. Who I am kidding, she does deserve better, and she will get that as soon as I leave.

Would I have married her? Yes. There is simply no other way I can stress how much I would gladly share my name with her. Everything I own she could have a share of, she's the love of my life, I've never felt this way about anyone before. Its funny to think that before she fully entered my life, all I was for was the drugs, the parties, the sex and now none of that even matters, I'm so in love with a girl that has completely changed me, but now I'm leaving.

Would I of made children with her? Yes. I found out she was on birth control hence why we hardly never used a condom but still, she can come off that right then we could try, I would happily love a little mini us running around, her taking the child to bed before slumbering next to me on our own couch in our very own house, falling asleep in her husbands arms as I carry her up to bed in our own bedroom. Oh I wish I wouldn't be so stupid.

I could simply just ask her to come with us right, I mean why not? Although she does have to finish math and college here, I leave in two days and she would need to move into the college over there, which would be complicated for her, and I want her to have the best grades, so she could have the best future.

Hopefully I will see her again, hopefully that she will visit me, if she actually talks to me. Or I will see her at family parties, christenings, weddings and such. However if it was her wedding I wouldn't turn up, I couldn't turn up, there is no way I would be able to stand at that alter and watch as she declares her love for another man. That would be painful.

I leave in two days and there is a party for me tomorrow which gives me chance to spend my last full day without any interruptions, with Katie, I will take her wherever she wants to go, I will spoil her although she'll beg to differ and I will give her my absolute everything. But also I need to make a mental note to sit her down and talk to her, and tell her everything.

"Get up lazy bones. We need to go?" I lightly tap her cheek as I sit on top of her, not putting all my weight onto her of course, I don't want to squash her.

"mmhm Harry..." She motioned me to come closer. "Shut the fuck up." She laughed and pulled the cover back over her head.

"Okay plan B." I smirk, I push my hand underneath the covers and trace my hand gently over her hipbone, she smirked but still insisted on keeping her eyes closed. I travelled my hand down to her already wet area. I couldn't help the words that fell from my mouth. "Fuck Katie, you're already wet for me, and I've barely touched you, who's daddy's little princess."

"I'm sleeping," she remains to keep her eyes shut but raises her eyebrow, questioning my next move, but I already thinks she knows.

I pull my fingers away from her heat and quietly undo my trousers, she begins to open her eyes, but suddenly closes them again as my hand is back onto her delicious heat. I rub in little circles in the centre as she begins to moan. I get her knickers and pull them to the floor.

"You won't get up ey?" I laughed hysterically and she keeps her eyes closed, oblivious to what I'm about to do, but I know it will wake her up. "Have it your way, you asked for this." I open her legs an trail my hand on her innocent creamy thighs, not hinting at all about my idea, then all of a sudden I push my hard dick inside of her. Her eyes immediately open in reaction my shaft.

"Oh shit, what the...o." She tried to pronounce a full sentence but the words never occurred in her mouth for her to do so.

"You going to wake up, or does daddy have to pump you up for the day?" I smirk knowingly.

"Pump me daddy, pump me hard. Give me your white fuel." She's so fucking dirty, which only increases my hardness.

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It's been a few hours since Katie's rough wake up call and can I point out that's she's just none stopped smiling all morning, it's a delight to watch, knowing either my sex was the reason for her happiness or simply just the sheer thought of my company.

Hopefully both.

"Harry?" I'm cut off from my thoughts.

"Wh-huh?" I looked at her with a confused expression plastering my face; she giggles like an idiot from across the living room.

"What movie?" She laughed out.

"Hmm, a horror." I smirk, knowing I would simply get more cuddles from her this way. "Why are you stood all the way over there anyway?"

"The remote-it's shit as fuck when I'm sat down, barely works." She cursed, catching me off guard.

"What did you just say?" I said in a serious angry tone, obviously joking but she didn't have to know that because then it wouldn't be as fun to wind her up.

"I said shit as fuck." She stuck out her tongue and went back to clicking, we decided on insidious chapter 2 and settled into the sofa together.

"I love you, baby. More than anything." I whisper into her smooth hair.

"I love you more." She looks up at me with tired eyes, glowing slightly as sleep is trying to empower her energy.

She sunk back into me and fell into a deep slumber shortly after, snoring lightly, I adored her as she slept, her little breaths puffing out as she exhaled her carbon dioxide into my chest. A smile grow on my face, uncontrollably.

I can't leave...no fuck I can't go, I can't leave her behind like this, I can't hurt her the way I know it will, I can't do it to the person I love. I can't do it to the person I adore most. I can't do it to the only constant in my life. I just fucking can't.

But I have to...

I have to go, I have to leave, my dad is going to get really ill, worse than he already is, and Kim will have to look after him but she can't do that as well as look after the business and go to work as well look after him. Gemma doesn't want anything to do with him because she doesn't appreciate how he cheated on my mum, but not everyone loves forever... But I'm getting into a great music university and I will study music and learn all the different types of music, and I will work into the music industry in some way. I have to leave...

...I have to say goodbye.