My hopes, my dreams, my memories

She can't be!

     Today I woke up bright and early, its was about 5:25 when I woke up. Then I heard the phone ring. I got out of bed and answered it, no one else would so might as well. My mom came behind me a few seconds later.
     It was the hospital, they were calling about my sister. I gave the phone to Mon while I went to wake my sisters up. I hoped it was good news, like she could come home and be with me again or she was able to talk now! But I knew not to get my hopes up.
     After everyone was up mom told us the news, its wasn't good. She told is that Amanda died in her sleep last night. No, she can't be dead!!!!!! I started crying as my mom says we don't have to go to school and we can stay home or go to the hospital with her.
     I wanted to go to the hospital because I wanted to see her room one last time and help plan her funeral. Mom said I could help because I had known her best she says. 
     The whole day I was crying and then I picked a date for the funeral, it was to be on her birthday, I thought that was a good day. Her birthday was in a week so we planned it that day.
     I was so sad, I set you my own sad chair in my room where I sat all alone, by myself. I sat there a cried and cried some more. All alone, by myself....