Flesh.

014

She told me that I was screwed and that I'd never find a girl like her. I was glad that she was gone but part of me knew my last chance for love was walking away in black pumps and skinny jeans. I knew that I would run after her at one point in my life, but I'm not ready to swallow my ego and chase the girl who's body licked the side of my windshield and flooded deaths core.

I grab my keys out of the counselors hand and run like my life depends on it, my love, my last chance, the girl who changed my world forever is gone; my girl is gone.  My legs don't catch up to me as my heart is running a thousand miles per minute.

The world is spinning; the hallways are taking me in like a puzzle, shapes form everywhere as I pant simulous to a dog. My adrenaline rush kick- starts and my body jerks up. I shove my keys into the ignition and my car waves a one-eighty to get the hell out of here. Where would she go?? I should know this. I continue down the high-way until I see her little red car with the rainbow sticker on the back. I speed through and pass everyone I can but falling behind enough to the point where she won't notice me.

Two hours pass as we hit the border to Pennsylvania and I hit my steering wheel. She's going back to Georgia.

She pulls into a Motel and I slowly pull up into the same parking lot, she grabs her purse and swipes underneath her eyes with care. I watch intently waiting for her to get out of her car so I can tell her how terribly foolish I was.

"Luna you need to go." I grab her arm, tears streaming down my face.

She shakes her head and pulls her arm out of my grip. "Please Belle, I need you. Don't go," my voice is hoarse from the lack of sleep, and pain killers I've swallowed dry from headaches.

"You said you didn't love me, you said all these horrible things and you think I'll just come back and pretend that it's okay?!" She shouts angrily.

"I just want you to hear me out, that's it," I coax, she puts her arms around herself shivering, instinctively I walk to her and embrace her. Her cold skin biting mine gently before creating luke warm.

"I need you Belle, I'm just uncertain about what I want, but I know I need you in my life. I'm so glad that you moved in. I know its hard to see me so depressed from Emma's death. You've been so sweet and understanding, believe me, that means so much"

"I just feel like I'm not enough."

"You are enough Belle, you'll always be enough." I lift her chin up with my index finger trying to get her to look at me.

"You're my girl, you can't go." The words leave my lips and I'm calm. I don't even try to take them back because I truly mean it, every single word.

She doesn't say anything but presses her warm lips to mine, igniting the fire inside of me, I lift her onto my waist and she clutches onto me like a child who fell down. I set her down in the drivers seat and get into the passenger. One look at her and I'm wasted, just from all her beauty to the torment in her eyes, to the way shes biting her lip. I kiss her harder then my lips can handle, just to assure her that this is us, that this is pure, and gorgeous.

------>>>Several hours later we're in my apartment sound asleep, her body tangled around mine like glue. I kiss the top of her head and hold her tighter. I want to protect her for the rest of my life whether my life is a day, a year or even a hour. I'll keep her safe, even if that means she won't be mine.

I tuck a strand of hair behind her ear, and whisper into her ear so softly, a mouse scuttling across the floor could be heard, "I love you."

AUTHORS NOTE:
You guys we don't have that many reads anymore that's alright tho. I'll just keep reading it to my cats. Deuces ✌🏻