silent in the trees // joshler

one.

Tyler shut the door to his bedroom and plopped down onto his bed before reaching over to grab his laptop on the desk beside his bed. He clicked the power button and clicked on the internet browser and typed in tumblr.com, the only place Tyler can safely talk about what is bothering him. He quickly scanned through his dashboard and reblogged a couple of pictures before uploading a new selfie that he felt proud of and almost confident in. He used a couple of tags underneath it, such as alternative and bands, and then posted it. There wasn't much on his dash that interested him, so Tyler logged off of his laptop and laid down under his covers to take a nap like he does most days.

Two hours later, Tyler bolts up from his slumber shaking and breathing heavily from a nightmare. They have been getting worse lately and it has been bothering him a lot. He takes out his notebook and writes a daily entry about the ups and downs of his day, making sure to include details about the nightmare. Tylers' therapist told him it was a good idea to list all of the dreams that bother him along with the negative thoughts his mind tells him in a notebook. The black plain notebook is full of a multitude of terrible things that Tyler could never even think of saying to another human being. It concerns him that he could think so badly about himself though. After writing nonstop for an hour, he finally takes a break and massages his aching hand. Once the words start unfolding from his mind there is no stopping them until his mind feels as if it has released every thought that is swimming through his troublesome head. He unlocks his phone and notices a notification from kik.

'New message from spookyjim'

He opens the message hesitantly and reads the message.

spookyjim: hi..i stumbled across your kik when i kinda sorta stalked your tumblr. youre cute, js. >.<

tyguy: awh thank u, jim?????

spookyjim: my name is josh actually.

tyguy: hi jish im tyler

tyguy: fuck josh*

tyguy: you know what screw it im gonna call you jish now

tyguy: JISHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

tyguy: okay im probably annoying you now. night...

Tyler set the alarm on his phone for the next morning and angrily threw his phone onto the floor. He reopened his laptop to check his tumblr before he can fall asleep. But going on tumblr late at night usually results in him pulling an all-nighter and drinking a ton of energy drinks the next morning. A notification popped up for a note on the picture he posted earlier that day, so he clicked on the blog who liked it. It only took Tyler 2.5 seconds to realize that it was Joshs' tumblr account. He quickly clicked the follow button and continued to scroll through numerous posts about drums before coming across a video of him playing his drum set. He was very impressed with Joshs' skills on the drums, so he liked and reblogged it to his own blog.

Before he realized that the sun was beginning to rise, the alarm on his phone went off for the morning. "Great." Tyler thought, "Another sleepless night." He stood up from his bed, stretched, and got into the shower and hoped it would help wake him up a bit. Most of the time, he spends the bulk of his shower just standing under the steamy water thinking about various things. Tyler's mind frightened him when he thinks too much; however, he has a strange liking towards his sadness. He believes it is because he cannot really remember a time when happiness was a common thing in his life. The only emotions Tyler's mind serves him most of the time are loneliness and sadness, along with a side of anxiety when he is out in public around people.

He gets the motivation to finally finish washing up and quickly goes through the rest of his morning routine. He takes a deep breath before opening his door to go out into the real world for yet another overwhelming day. "Today will be a better day." Tyler tells himself to attempt to have a more positive day, but that hidden part of himself in his head screams at him. It says, "Today will be a terrible day, stop telling yourself false truths." He isn't sure which side of his mind he should listen to more anymore because his days usually end badly and he hates lying to himself.

Tylers phone vibrates in his pocket, causing him to snap back into reality. It's a message on Kik and he automatically hopes it is Josh responding to him since he never did the night before.

spookyjim: im sorry for not answering last nite. i was having some troubles and idk i didnt want to bother you..

tyguy: its okay, i feel the same way most of the time. have a good day.

spookyjim: you too tyguy ^.^

tyguy: ill try jishua <3

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I'm going to attempt to try this story thing. Not edited so please tell me if you see any errors.

stay alive<3