I believe that I have lost my soul and the momentum to live about two years ago. I just noticed about a year ago that I'm just an empty hollow shell trying to survive with the living. I'm now only filled with hatred, sadness and a sad excuse to live.
All I have with me right now is my best and only friend that I met at the beginning of summer; who truly gets me. I have a mother who believes I'm a waste of space and I have tons of hatred to her.
She keeps filling me lies saying that she loves me and that she has done everything she can to be a good mother. But I know that's all bull puppy. She never tried to be a great mother. She just did the bare minimum of being a mother. She never loved me. All she ever wanted was just to control me.
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My name is Breezy and I am 15. My life used to great and happy but obviously 'nothing gold can stay.' If I'm going to tell you my story, then I'm going to have to trust you. I hate trusting people because they always let me down but this time I want to trust you. I want to make sure that you are not going to judge me.
Since I'm going to tell you my story I have to start from the beginning. To much crap already happened for you to catch on in the middle. I have a question for you. Think you can answer it... doubt it.
Why is my life so confusing? Why can't I have one of those perfect lives that you see on T.V with a mom and dad who are actually happy in their marriage? With siblings who argue but do anything for each other also have family pets, good friends, nice school and a beautiful house.
This might be a shocking but I did have that once in my life. It was all fake, none of that was real. My parents didn't love each other... they tolerated each other. My siblings were all older and had their own lives. I wasn't allowed to go with them half the time because I was to young.
So I was alone. I was born a bastard by that I mean my parents had me before their wedding it was short of like a shot - gun wedding. You know I'm not an expert on shot – gun wedding but I honestly think that you're suppose to have the shot – gun wedding before your child is born. Even though my brother, sister and I were sitting on the curb until they were finish having the wedding.
My parents everybody, aren't they great.
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Don't judge me!! You are free to comment on anything. IF it is anything negative. Go fuck yourself!! Jk... But I do believe if you don't have anything nice to say then don't say it at all. If you don't know the quote 'nothing gold can stay' then you should check out the poem by Robert Frost. The chapter is inspired by the song 'Her last words' by Courtney Parker
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Non-FictionThis is about a girl name Breezy and her life story. It's not the happiest story. So go through a lot of ups and downs. This story go into her pass and her present day life. It could be a sad story, depends on who you are. So enter if you want to fi...
