Forever and Always

Chapter Four: She's a Ray of Sunshine

                                                                                        ~Dan's POV~

I couldn't believe this was happening. I was having heart palpitations and everything was a blur. I could focus on only one thing: Amelia. My palms began to sweat at the thought of her name along with a loss of words, I couldn't quite speak.

My head was completely filled with visions of her beautiful, brown eyes and her gentle voice. My mind flooded with her. Since the thoughts and visions were so absolutely wonderful, I seemingly lost perception of time. I wasn't aware that it was time to leave, and I wasn't ready. As I put on a navy blue, button down shirt, accompanied with jeans, my phone buzzed.

Amelia: Are you already at the book store? I forgot about time and I'm not exactly ready. Thirty more minutes fine?

I let out a sigh of relief and disappointment. I didn't really need thirty minutes to get ready, and I wanted to see her as soon as possible. Even if that means I'm not ready. And I don't care how she looks, because she's always beautiful to me. I just wanted to be with her the majority of the time. I wanted to see her smile, touch her soft hands, and maybe kiss her. And maybe kiss her I thought And definitely kiss her. I corrected myself. Though that wasn't my mission for tonight, it would still be an accomplishment. It would still be perfect. And I would love her a little more.

I grabbed my coat and my backpack, which carried art supplies and a bit of homework, along with my laptop. Amelia loves art I remembered I love that about her. I picked up my phone and read another text from Amelia.

Amelia: Can we just meet at my place? I feel like that would be better, considering I can't get myself together. Ugh, I'm such a mess.

I didn't want to reject the idea of going to her house completely. It wasn't a bad idea, but I was too nervous to meet her family. I do suppose that if that would make her happy, then I should be some what okay. Get over yourself and gain some self control.

Dan: Okay, that sounds like fun! I can't wait to see you, I've missed you so much lately.

I felt my heart nearly jump out of my chest and onto the floor. I've missed you so much lately? I barely remember typing that. Why would I say that? I may has well admitted everything to her. That I like her with all of my heart and have been feeling like I can't live a normal life without her, and how she is always what I fall asleep and wake up thinking about. I rudely thought to myself. I've missed you so much lately. I mocked myself.

I could not think straight from that point forward. Nothing in my mind was contained, and I couldn't talk to anyone about it. I was stricken with fear at the thought of even mentioning that I love her. Of course I wouldn't tell her I love her. But instead that I like her. I feel like that is a bit less stressful than saying how I truly felt. It would be bad to lie to her, though I thought doubting myself I should say the complete truth. Technically, it wouldn't be considered a lie. More so not close to the truth; I do like her I bargained with myself. But I also more than like her  I finally admitted to myself.

My phone buzzed again and I looked over at it like it was Amelia herself. I picked it up and read the text with a smile:

Amelia: Alright, I'm ready. I dressed up extra nice, trust me, I feel like I look quite nice. Haha.

I let out a small, quiet giggle, and kept reading the text over and over again. To know that she was actually trying was probably the most adorable thing in my life at the moment. It was like a dream; My heart was more than something, now, that contributed to my life. It was something that contributed to my soul, my mind, and only anything and everything that I was capable of thinking about.

Dan: Aww, now I'm all worried that I might look silly compared to you, with all your fabulousness.

Amelia: I'm almost positive that you' d look amazing however you dressed, don't be too worried, I may or may not have exaggerated a bit about how I look.

Dan: Thank you, you're so sweet, but I am sure that you will look better than me, considering your face is better than mine, as well as everything else about you. Anyways, I'm getting in my car now. I will be over in probably 15 minutes. I love y--

I started to type I love you. Not yet, Daniel, be patient, wait it out I hurriedly erased the I love you and replaced it with see you soon. Yet I still reminded myself that I love her. I do love her.