Take The Pain Away

Chapter 10

You know what hurts the most? When you try to hold on your feelings just to protect yourself of not being hurt and you end up getting hurt.

I finally admitted to myself that I like him and I want so much more from him. He seems so nonchalant, it's like he's 2 faced old man and I kind of got bored of that. He comes to me and says how much I'm beautiful and the next day he just hurt my feelings by a text message.

It's now been 2 weeks and that how our friendship is nowadays, he seems so lost and it looks like he can't even find himself.

I understand because I was in the same situation before 2 months. And I now feel the change that happened in my life, I'm out going and I met new friends but not that close to them, they're only a library mates. Everything I used to love, I started to do it all again. Dad got proud of me and I hope Mom is too.

Landon's parents have no appearance and he kind of feels happy because of the freedom he's living in. He even likes a guy near the hood! I'm worried about this kid.

I got my own Car, Dad is now an Assistant Manger and he bought me a piano as a gift. I didn't know how to react when he got it for me but then I remembered Mom, she had always told me to never give up on my hobbies because it would Help me when I get older.

I only saw Mason for 3 days in the past 2 weeks, he changed a little and that kind of got me worried about him but I don't want to talk to him if he didn't, why would I throw myself all over him when he doesn't?

We may now be friends but not so close that I know everything about him. I don't even know if he had any siblings or both of his parents are alive! I don't know what's with his life and he doesn't know what's going on in mine.

I looked to my left to see a sleeping Landon, yeah it was 3 in the morning and I'm still awake thinking of my whole life and Mason's part too. I get worried about him every time I say his name, I actually care about him.

I played some games on my phone and the moments past by, I got a massage from him.

Ronnie open the door

at this hour? Open the door? What was wrong with him? I quickly got up tip toeing down the stairs so I don't wake anyone up even though both of them sleep like a dead person. I opened the door slowly

"Ayyy der barker." He throws his hands up in the air yelling "I didn't know you live here!!" He started to laugh. Oh with a laugh like that I knew he was drunk.

"Come in." I pulled his hands and he stared at me like I'm a murder

"You know what? You look similar to me! Who who who... Aaa-haa!!" He flicked his fingers "My friend Ronnie she lives on the opposite side! In front of my house you-you believe that?" He said proudly as we made our way to the guest room.

"Oh really?" I laughed

"Yeah." He nodded raising a brow with a smirk.

"Okay, sit here and don't move or talk so loud I'll be right back." I whispered to him walking to my room to get some Tylenol pills and water because of the hangover he'll get in the morning.

I looked on the shelves and drawers for it but I can't find it anywhere and that got me pissed a little bit, I always put it in that drawer!

"Nice room you got." I heard his voice, I quickly turned around shushing him and he got this look on his face.

"What I said its nice why shushing me!" He wore a frown. Ugh, I walked to him grabbing his hand to the guest room again.

"Oh oh I like this hand touching thing." I turned my head to see him smirking. I let go of it, placing it on his shoulders to make him sit.

"You will sleep here. I will be in my room the next door on the left." I sighed because I hate it when I talk to drunk people because I hate to explain sometimes.

He looked down then again to me "Stay." his eyes were full of Sadness that I just wanted to get it off of him. "I'm depressed."

"Okay I'm here for you." I nodded sitting next to him, the smell of alcohol were surrounding us and I didn't like that at all.

"Will you stay with me?" He moved his hand to my hips and with that touch he was sending shivers down my spine.

"I am with you." I said quietly

"No... I mean fo-forever? With me." He was so close that it almost freaked me out.

"I would. If you didn't act like a jerk." He giggled nodding. What was wrong with him that made him drink this much?

"Alright Ma'am." The smile left his face and you can see there was something that is annoying and hurting him at the same time. It almost killed me to be honest.

"You know what? I hate myself. I hate my life. I'm alone and I feel empty. Ronnie I'm torn apart!" He sniffed shaking his head. "To get rid of everything I drink every day Ronnie every single fucking day I can't go on a day without drinking! There are even little bottles in my backpack." His voice was starting to get louder until the last part, which he whispered wiping his tears away.

If I could take all the sadness, the hurtful things and the heartaches I would.

"I can help you with the drinking thing."

"You cannot! No one can stop me from drinking!!!" He shouted to my face taking a heavy breath. I'm starting to get afraid of this, I don't want anything to get worse and I hate it when people shout straight to my face.

"Listen to me." I put a hand on his and the other on his face. He looked at me and his eyes were red and swollen "I will be here for you even if the world ended."

"I-"

"Now Sleep and don't over think. You know where my room is so if you need anything just come to me." I smiled moving my hand to his hair, woah how soft it is.

"I... I want you to stay.. Sleep with me." He looked like he would cry again if I said no, so I just nodded. He lay down and I lay next to him. He put his head on my chest. My eyes were a basketball sized and I can feel the beat of my heart in my ears.

"Your heart." he paused moving his head to look at me. "It's so fast." So you know that it's beating so fast, why did you put your head over there again?

I didn't respond looking at his head. We laid there for about 5 minutes, in a comfortable silence. He pulls me tighter every second that I was about to choke.

"I like you."

Wait. Wait. Wait. Did he just? He did? He said that he? He said he he? No. No. He's drunk. He said he has no feelings for me and he's not ready yet. I'm sure that means nothing maybe he thought I was his ex girlfriend or something. If he meant me he would've at least say my name.

He snored a little after. Should I go back to my room? Or should I just stay here?

It feels right to feel all these things but not right enough because he was drunk. But, Landon had always told me that if a person said that he likes you when he's drunk that means it's a true feeling. I don't really know about that but I kind of hope its true..

I glanced at Mason who looked like a dead person; I tried to move myself to get out of his arms.

I hope I don't wake him up.

I was free from his arms, okay now the head, but wait.. How am I supposed to move it? It would wake him up. I let out a sigh resting my head over the pillow again.

"Stay." He moved his head to my neck, and his arms around my waist.

Oh. My. God.

His hot breath hit my neck and the smell of alcohol surrounded me, I felt gross a little bit to be honest. I've never liked the smell of it; I didn't even try to get drunk once in my life. I tried so many things from cigarettes to weed, yeah I've tried it once and I was so fly.

My thoughts were going further and further until I slept.





I woke up the next morning to see myself in the guest room, sleeping all alone. I looked around for Mason but he was nowhere to be found. I guess he left early since its 10 in the morning, why am I awake?

I walked to my room, Landon was still asleep and I guess he still doesn't know about Mason coming here. How would he know you stupid? Oh right.

I took the phone from the nightstand, to tweet something I thought about. And here it says "a Massage from Mason" I was nervous to open it, because I know he would say that he's sorry and all these stuffs. I closed my eyes clicking on it.

"Hey Ronnie. Umm, I am really sorry about what happened! I don't remember anything I've ever said or done to you but if I hurt you or said something stupid I'm sorry. Even if I said anything about these liking things I don't really mean it. I don't mean anything I've said if I talked.. I guess. So yeah, hope you just forget that last night happened and I'll see you soon.."

Seriously? Seriously? Okay. I'm done with this. It doesn't even make sense. I put my phone back to the nightstand not replaying to him and I will not replay anything, ever. What to do at 10 AM when you feel boring, sleepy and mad?

Watch the TV and eat some food. Duh?

I spun my wheels to the kitchen, made a Turkey sandwich and an orange juice. I turned the TV to see if there was anything good to watch but there was nothing, I groaned. Before I remembered that my house is overlooking the sea and I can just go out there simply.

I walked to the glass door and opened the curtains, the sun light hit my face directly and it was smoking hot. Why should I go in the hot weather when I have a cold room?

I sighed turning the arm chair to face the porch. I stared at the beautiful view; people were sitting out there getting a tan. Some are playing volleyball, and some are swimming. I throw my head back closing my eyes.

I will see you soon.

Does that means tomorrow? Or after 2 weeks? Pfftt why do I think of that? It doesn't matter I got used to his disappearing and appearing thing. What if he didn't come the past week because he was drinking like this? What if he and his ex girlfriend were back again? What if he did not like me and trying to pull himself away before we get deeper in our friend ship?

But wait, he said he like me this morning but he was drunk and not aware. Well, maybe he thought I'm his ex as I said. Ugh just push this thought away it's so stupid of me to think of him. I don't care about him or what is going through his damn life and I will not talk to him again and I will totally forget about him. Yes yes I'm making this deal with myself.

"Oh my god Ronnie you're awake before noon! I can't believe it." Landon's voice interrupted me, I did not response and I did not even smile. Because with that massage who would smile? It was hurtful and he doesn't even know it.

"I need to crash out." I said getting up and turning the air chair back to it place.

"Is everything alright?" He Lean on the wall and I looked down a little knowing that when I say 'I need to crash out' means I'm really depressed and I want to be alone.

"I don't want to talk about it right now." I walk to where the stairs were. He stood in front of it.

"No, you'll talk right now so you don't get upset again later." He crossed his arms raising a brow, I frown sitting on the floor and it was pretty cold.

I told him everything that happened and he just nodded not saying a word, and I kept on talking and getting a nod as a response until I finished and he finally talked

"He was drunk. He said his true feelings. He likes you but He's broken and maybe there is something going on in his life." He shrugged his shoulders, and it was my turn to nod. What should I say? There is nothing.

I stared at the stairs for a little while not knowing what to think of or what to say. I should give him some space though, maybe that thing he was crying about effected on him which made him change.

Then this thought hit me, I have James' and Ryan's numbers. I can ask them.

No, if you opened your messages you will read that and your heart will ache.

I walked past Landon to the room, took my phone and clicked on Ryan's number. And as I said, I asked him about Mason but guess what?

I don't know about his personal life.

Was His response. Okay, now I kind of understand since it's personal. But that doesn't mean he just come here and tell me that he likes me even though he wasn't aware of what he's saying, still that thought did not leave my mind. Maybe I should just avoid him too? I'm always the one who asks about him so why not just stop it now?

Wait wait before you start avoiding, at least text him something.

Okay, uh I should be nice and not hurt him because he's sad enough. What should I write?

Aha! I flicked my fingers and started typing..

Hope you know that if there's anything that aches your heart, I'm here for you.

And with that I clicked on send. Aw how nice am I? Even though he made me depressed today but why shouldn't I make him happy with that message? I shaked my head smiling.

So now, I'm so in the mood for shopping, I don't even know why. I jumped to the closet and picked up a black tank top, jeans shorts since it's really hot out there and in case it was cold in the mall I put in the bag a dark gray hoodie. Let my hair normally not wanting to run anything into it because it looks kind of perfect.

"Landon, go and change I want to go to the mall!" I yelled from my room's door trying to wear my shoes.

"I don't want to go to the mall. I'll sleep." He yelled back walking up the stairs.

"Okay then." I put my bag on my shoulder grabbed my keys and sunglasses then walked right past him knowing that he'll say wait I'll go change in a minute.

"Wait!! I'll go change don't leave me alone!" He ran to the guest room yelling, I chuckled running down the stairs.


It's been 10 minutes while I'm waiting for him, seriously? It took 5 minutes or less for me to get ready and I am the girl.

Rule number two with me: don't make me wait for you more than 5 minutes.

"Landon!" I walked to the house's door yelling, and he still wasn't here! Is he serious he can wear anything and he would look good ugh!

"I'm here I'm here!" He ran to me with a towel on his head wearing a simple white shirt and black pants. Oh so he took a shower. I shook my head walking out of the door.

Guess who stopped his car in front of the house across the street?

Yes. You guessed right. Mason.

I stood there staring at it till he got out; I felt these butterflies and kind of anger inside me. He moved his head to the side of my house until his eyes met mine. I felt like I would faint at any minute, but what he did next make me want to go and slap he hundred times.

He moved his head quickly and went inside of the house.


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