I've been living here for three years, the foster is in Houston Texas,I got here when I was 12 now I'm 15. Wow. Time flies still question myself about my mother's absence,but a part of me has moved on and tried to build a life.
Foster home isn't bad, but it isn't the life I have imagined, I'm still trying to figure out if life with my mother would have been better? Or worse? Well....
I see kids come and go, getting adopted or finding their parents. . I do wish I had a normal family,seeing those happy families who come here and donate their old stuff to us is too much,I wish my mother was decent,I wish I knew my dad,I wish I had siblings,and I just wish that life was fair..but I'm here instead. Today is just a normal day,no plans as usual,maybe ill just go do my homework,yes I do go to school,I'm actually home schooled with the other kids here..I love education, I just love learning have geography and physics homework, I'll just get to those then heaven knows what next.
I got out of the shower and wrapped myself with a towel. I looked myself in the mirror "wow,I look just like my mom don't I?" I mumbled.. I don't hate her,just her doings.I put on some lotion and picked out some leggings,a blue hoodie and vest then did a messy bun to my hair...I have long black hair. I don't wear make up it just looks uncomfortable. After getting dressed I took my books then went outside to find a sitting spot to do my homework,the weather was pretty chilled,some of the kids I stay with here were outside playing. Their laughter just put a smile on my face for some weird reason.
"Huh, perfect, better get this work done"I mumbled. I sat down and put my books on the table, when I was about to get to work someone interrupted me "so how about you get to mine next?" A voice said, it turned out to be Denise, this girl has had a problem with me since I got here.
"Not today please, I'm busy" I replied. "Well..your ass better get busy with my homework too or else...." Denise said " I'm gonna get in trouble and that gets you in trouble". I looked at her then back to my book without saying a word...." Uh-uh missy,you better not give me that stank attitude cause that ain' gon' be good for ya" attitude? She's way stupid than I thought.. "Okay you got it,ill help you with your homework,more like..ill do it for you,so would you excuse me now?" I said. "Excuse you huh? You know what,ill excuse you,you better come to my room and fetch them books thou cause you know they ain' got feet" Denise said then excused herself. The fuck? That girl needs help. Denise is a 16 year old who looks like a confused bully. I was gonna get back to my books when something caught my attention...what is that? Another one? What's wrong with our parents though? Well I couldn't see much,just a guy with an afro and Mr.Smith unpacking some bags from the car. Okay let me get back to work,gee! This is a lot of work.
"Ashleigh!!!, Ashleigh Lockridge!!!" a voice shouted, sounds like Ms.Ward. Lord Jesus Christ am I gonna finish my work? "Yes Ms.Ward? I'm on my way!!" I shouted back. I quickly got my books then ran to Ms.Ward who was standing in her office door "Yes Ms.Ward?" I said. Miss Ward is one of our care takers here.Wow! What a strong woman she is,her daughter died from cancer when she was only 16 and she's been taking care of other kids since then.someone who atleast appreciates life. " I have visitors for you" she said with a smile.what? What is she talking about? "Okay" I said, with "confused" written all over my face, I did not want to ask questions yet.
*Ms.Ward's office*
We got in the office and Ms.Ward asked me to sit down, I greeted the 'visitors' then sat down next to Ms.Ward, I know these people!! "Ashleigh,I bet you remember the Wilsons?" Ms.Ward asked "..well they are here because they liked you a lot and they want to adopt you,they really want to have you as their daughter" uhm what? I don't know these people that well,the last time they were here we barely talked. "I don't mean to sound rude but I don't know you that well,and you don't know me either" I said "...but you really look like a nice couple" I tried to rub it off,the Wilsons smiled at me. " Actually you will soon,cause you are going to stay with them at their home for a week,that's a great way to get to know each other don't you think? Ms.Ward said. "I'm sorry Ms.Ward but how am I gonna go to complete strangers' home and be cool with it? And it looks like you're making decisions for me like how did I not know about this till now?" I asked. Ms.Ward was kinda suprised on how rude I was being,but it was the truth. " Well Ashleigh.. We also showed The Wilsons your profile and they really like you" Ms.Ward stated...I looked at Mrs Wilson and she had tears in her eyes.dang.didn't see that one coming. "I'm sorry but---" Mrs wilson cut me "its not your fault,its just that we have been trying so hard to have a child,for years but there's no hope.and I would really appreciate it if you gave us a chance".
