Summer Love

Epilogue

After 7 years...

Paris POV

I now work in a prestigious company. A company who are most sought by graduates. I'm very proud to be a part of it.

Looking back I wonder where he is now. If he's already married and have kids, or a family of his own.

What if naging kami before? Will we last a lifetime? Magkakatuluyan kaya kami? May mga anak na kaya kami ngayon? Magbebreak kaya kami at magkakaron ng different partners?

Those ifs are hunting me right now. Time is precious. We can never rewind the time.

Working in Makati makes me realize that I live a fast paced life. Pag gising sa umaga kakain, maliligo, magtoothbrush, magbibihis at aalis papuntang work. After work, kakain, matutulog and so on. Every day is very routine. Even the food, parating fast food, minsan hindi mo na machew ng maigi ung food because I'm always on the go.

Hindi ko namamalayan 7 year na pala.

Those 7 years I did not entertain suitors, rejected numerous dates, reunions and the likes.

Let say, I'm saving myself for him. Or I'm really not interested to enter into a relationship if it's not him.

Reminiscing the past, makes me wants to go to our school. The places we've been, the chairs, the rooms sa school na tinatambayan ko/namen before. The library, the comfort rooms which is my sanctuary when I got bored and do make-ups na lang instead of sleeping during break.

Nakakamiss ung student life, hihingi ka ng baon, magiipon ka, magpapabili ka sa parents mo ng mga gusto mo. Ngayon na nagwowork ka na you need to work hard for your family. Kapag may gusto ka pagiipunan mo. Madaming expenses. Bawal magkasakit, because it would mean additional expense. Maswerte ka kung ung company mo may health card. Pag nagwowork ka na ung future ung titignan mo. Unlike nung bata pa tayo puro laro, tulog, kain lang ang iniitindi natin.

Ngayon we need to invest in our future. Be it monetary or educational wise. When I have time and extra money I put it in a bank and ung iba pinambabayad ko sa seminars to I can learn. Nakakaboring naman kung puro work lang walang new learning's. New acquaintances.

Whenever I think of my alma mater, siya lagi ung naiisip ko. I wonder kung ano kayang ginagawa niya. Ano kayang naging work niya? Nasa pinas ba siya? Nasa ibang bansa ba siya? Things like that.

Most of the time when I don't have something to do. I search his name through different kinds of social media. And most of the time, he has none of those. Or maybe iba lang ung name na gamit niya, hindi ung real name niya.

Regrets.

Since goody two shoes ako. Never akong nagkaboy friend. Work bahay lang ang destinasyon ko. Although during bonuses sa work sumasama naman ako sa mga friends ko sa mga out of town trips. Umaatend ng reunion pag super close ko ung mga friends na sasama. Never nagloko sa kung ano anong bagay. Yung mga kabarkada ko maagang nabuntis, magaang nagkababy. Halos lahat sila me family na. Ilan na babies nila. Sa mga reunions nakakainggit din.

Minsan nakakasawa yung mga questions like? Me boyfriend k na? Wala ka pang anak? Wala ka pang asawa? Kelan ka magboboyfriend? Pakilala kita kay ganito ganyan. Haist.

Ako, eto Masaya din naman. Pero alam mo ung parang may kulang? Yung minsan malulungkot ka without any reason. Yung pag nag shopping ka ng madami masaya ka saglit. Pero paguwi mo after maubos pera mo malulungkot ka ulet kc hindi mo naman magagamit araw araw yung mga pinamili mo na bagay.

Honestly hindi ko talaga alam kung ano minsan isasagot. If maghihintay ba ko with that special someone? If im going to go to dates?

Minsan nga my parents already told me they wanted to have grandchildren already. Hahaha

Imagine? Wow. Sabi ko nga magkakron kayo ng apo sa aso naten. Hehehe

Or sometimes I answered by saying "gusto ko mag ampon. twins"

Kaya kayo pag may nanligaw sa inyo. Give him a chance. Don't let chances fade away. Wag mo siyang hayaan mawala. Kumawala. O magtago. Wag matakot sa heartaches. Sabi nga ng boss ko dati, kung di ka masasaktan di ka nagmamahal. Parte yan ng relasyon. Masaktan, lumuha, magpatawad.

Give yourself a chance. To loved someone and be loved in return.