My Cold Hearted Life (Urban)

Entry 1: April 25th

Dear Diary,

I'm making a diary because I feel like I have a lot on my mind and no one to really turn to. You see my family and I live in poverty. I started selling drugs to pay a few of the bills but that's not enough. My mother can't get a job because she has had to steal food so many times for us she's been arrested and nobody will hire her because they think she will steal.

Before I keep going on my name is Melanie and I'm 17 years old. I live with my mother and my little brother Chris who is 10. My brother and I have different fathers. My mother was raped and got pregnant with me and Chris's father just isn't around. Even though its only 3 of us life still isn't easy.

Chris' dad was our support system and after he left we barely had any money to get by. I had to apply for jobs and finally ended up getting one at McDonalds. My mom gets food stamps for us but that's still not enough. I know longer work at Micky D's but instead I sell weed. It brings in more money than working at a fast food place but not to much to the point where my mom would ever question where I'm getting this money from. She would probably kill me if she knew I was a dealer.

But back to Chris' dad, I never liked him. Ya he was a provider but he also was a nasty man. When I was younger he would come in and tuck me in at night and give me goodnight kisses. When he would tuck me in he would caress my body in an unwanted sexual way. A few times when he kissed me it would be on the lips and once he made me kiss his dick. I was about 5 when all of this was going on. I believe the only reason why he didn't make me suck him was because my mom yelled his name for him to help her with something. The reason why he never raped me was because he told me my body was not developed enough for that and my there would be to much blood after. He told me when my body was developed enough that he would take my virginity.

One day when my Jasmine was at my house my auntie caught Chris' dad molesting her and about to rape her. She was 12 at the time and already was developed and had her period. When my auntie saw what she was seeing she immediately called the police and he fled. That was the last time we saw him and he whispered to me "I'll be back for you baby girl" and he kissed me on the lips. I wiped it off and ran to my cousin to see if she was okay. All she did was cry and my aunt was livid.

When my mom got home all she was police at first and we told her what happened. But know she didn't believe us. He said "my Sean would never do that especially since he has a beautiful sexy thick as women like me that definitely knows how to navigate her way around the bedroom with no gps aha" my auntie looked at her like she was crazy"

"What the fuck is wrong with you Vanessa?" my auntie replied. "You and him are both sick and you know it, she is a young girl not even a teen yet and should never have to go through this"

"That bitch shouldve thought about that before she tried to take my man from me" my mom snapped

"Don't ever disrespect my daughter like that, your lucky I walked in when I did and she still has here innonence"

"That bitch innonence probably been gone, you already been complaining how fast she getting"

I just held Jas and she cried even harder. Next thing we knew my aunt was on top if my mom beating her ass. Owee auntie Kayla got hands, she got my momma looking like a weak bitch lol. No disrespect to my momma though. The police came and broke up the fight and my mom walked to her room and started singing Young Dro

"West Side, Bankhead, is where I'm from

Everything y'all did has been done

My True game and my shoe game

You can't touch that shit A bitch that holler 'bout "fuck me?"

Nah, fuck that bitch

Fuck that bitch, fuck that bitch

A bitch that holler 'bout "fuck me?"

Nah, fuck that bitch

Fuck that bitch, fuck that bitch

A bitch that holler 'bout "fuck me?"

Nah, fuck that bitch"

My auntie was about to run up on her until the police stopped her again. They finished doing my report and took Jas to the hospital to run some test on her. I really hope she's okay. That was the last time I seen my cousin and Auntie Kayla. They both hugged me before they left and told me they loved me. After that incident my mom and my aunt haven't been coo. I can't believe my mom did all that and that's the exact reason why I never told her what Sean use to do to me.

After he left though life has not been easy on us but I do what I do for my family and nobody can judge me cuss they don't know my story.

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