Entry: May 1st

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Dear Diary,

Today I was walking to the store after selling my last bag of weed. I decided that I would buy some things to cook for cinco de mayo in a few days. I was planning to make some enchadillas and tacos.

While I was getting the ingredients I seen Marco. I hadn't talked to him since I had last seen him so I didn't want to just come out of no where and approach him. I barely met him so I didn't want him to think I was a weirdo stalker. Especially since he had shown interest in me. I decided to play it cool. I walked over to where he was and said excuse me and grab and item I wasn't intending to buy. He realized it was me and we started a conversation. He had told me he had been thinking about me and meant to ask for my number when he had seen me. I told him I thought of him every now and then even though I couldn't keep my mind off him I just didn't wanna seem like an obsessed desperate girl. He said he was picking up a few snacks and some beers to go watch the game at LP's house. I told him I was on my way over there after buying groceries and dropping them off at my house. He insisted on giving me a ride to both places and I accepted. We got in line and he offered to pay for my things along with his. When I seen him buy the beers I knew he had to be older.

He took me to my house to drop of the groceries and he waited in the car. I didn't invite him inside because he was older and I'm not sure how my mom would react, I just met him, and also because I was only going to be there for a little while.

I put up all the groceries and locked the door while leaving out the house and went back to Marco's car. While he was driving I asked him what high school he went to even though I knew he was out of high school since he was at least 21. He told me him graduated already so I asked him his age. He's 22 and it didn't surprise me when he said it. I did tell him mines because I thought he wouldn't want to associate with me if he knew the truth. Before he had the chance to think of asking we were already at LP's.

I walked in with Marco and said hi to all the guys and the girls there. It seemed as if every guy had a girl with them there so I wonder why Marco didn't bring one not that I didn't have a problem with him showing up with just me. Hopefully this was a sign that I actually had a chance with him. He had sat down on a couch that only had enough room for two people to sit there if they wanted to be close. I searched for a seat and I saw there were none left but beside him. He told me to come sit next to him so I did. I had never been this close to a guy but my little brother so this was all new to me.

We were watching the game and all started eat, drinking beers, vodka, and we passed around a few blunts. I know I sell weed and associate with LP but I was in between ammature and pro when it came to pro handling my liquor. I could feel myself getting cross faded so I layed on Marco's chest while watching the game and he seemed to not mind and it showed when he had put his arms around me. I started to wonder is this what it feels like to get male attention because if so I was loving it. For once I felt safe and secure.

After the game was over I talked to LP and got some more supply of weed. Marco offered to give me a ride again so we left together. We were talking and he was telling me how I am such a beautiful girl and how he would love to get to know me more. When he told me that I was happy because I was feeling the same way. When we arrived at my house he kissed me on the cheek and promised to call me later on.

When I got inside my apartment I went to the kitchen and there was dinner on the stove. I made me a plate and headed towards my room. My mom was sleep on the couch so I grabbed a blanket and put it over her. My little brother was up watching spongebob so I went to watch it with him so I could spend some time with him. I decided to go in the fridge and get some premade cookie to put in the oven. I made them and got two glasses of milk so we could eat it while watching the rest of the marathon.

After the show was over I gave my brother a kiss goodnight and told him I loved him and his respond was parallel. I washed the plate and two glasses and went to lay down in the bed. All I could do was think about Marco and how it felt being with him.

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