My Cold Hearted Life (Urban)

Entry 2: April 26th

Diary Dear,

I went to my drug dealer today and he said that if I sell cocaine and hookahs instead of weed a can get more money. Honestly I'm kind of scared because if I get caught up with the police ill get more time than I would just selling weed. And on top of that my family and I are already being evicted so what'll happen to them if I get locked up ? How will they eat ? How will they be able to pay the bills ? How will they survive ? That's was all that went through my head when I went to his house.

When I went to the house there was a guy I had never seen before over there. He told me his name was Marco and he showed me a little attention. He told me I have nice eyes. I didn't know what to say back really but thank you since I had never really been given any compliment. He had asked me what my name was and I told him. I picked up a supply of weed instead of taking the dealers offer right away. By the way my dealer goes by LP. When I was on my way out Marco offered to drive me home. I accepted. On my way out of the car he gave me a kiss on my hand. I had never been kiss by anyone but my moms before. Was that really my first kiss ? I had thanked him for a ride and walked to my apartment.

When I got inside I couldn't help but to think of him. Maybe he likes me. He didn't give me his number but hopefully ill see him again. If anything LP knows him and I can always ask him for his number. If I didn't see Marco around I would for surely ask LP for it.

I posted on facebook and the gram that I had weed available for anyone that needed it.

 Instagram comments

you_noimabossassbitch_: Where the dro at ?

shawtysayshe_wannafuck_okay: How much ?

queen_dealer_niggawassup: @you_noimabossassbitch_ I'm at the house meet me at the park in 10

queen_dealer_niggawassup: @shawtysayshe_wannafuck_okay purp for 5 and 4 bags for 18 meet me at the park near if you wanna buy

Facebook messages

White Girl Sarah

 White:Girl can I get it this time for free ?

Me: Girl you know how I feel about that but only this last time

White: Girl you know I got you later, my parents just been stingy with money when they found out I've been using

Me: I feel youu meet me at the park

White: Okay

Sarah's been my girl since middle school so I didn't mind as much but she definitely gotta start paying. I can't keep coming up short on LP's money.

Jordan

Jordan: Hey sexy how much?

Me: 5 but for you 7

Jordan: Why you being like that ma?

Me: you no why, you humilated me in front of the whole school

Jordan: It was just one picture, you gotta nice body that you always hiding

Me: Why would I want the whole school to see me naked, your just a fuck as nigga that don't give a fuck about me or nobody else

Instantly blocked him and post my number one insta and the book just in case anybody else wanted any load and made my way to the park. Sarah and a few people that I knew would show up came. I stayed their for a while and got a few text and calls from people saying they needed some. After a hour I made $275. I left back to the house and put up my product and profit. I went and got some dinner which was chili cheese dogs and fries. I ate washed the dishes and went to my room. I turned on my show Fresh of Belair. Damn Will Smith was hella sexy when he was younger. That's one nigga that could get it lol. He was too much of a player though on the show. But for the rest of the night ima watch this until I K.O.

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